Clearlyseeengnow
Member
All,
I hit 70 plus days.... No PMO! I feel better and closer to my wife as this whole ( continuing ) experience involves both of us. I have to say that the urges to pullout and pull up ( porn ) come mostly when I have down time and the house is empty. I continually make an active, informed and right decision to keep true to my promise to myself, my wife and in a way to the public affirmation I've written here. My problem isn't so much steering away from PMO but moreso has to do with my return to sexual normalcy ( well in reality since I had used porn since my midteens returning is a stretch ).
It seems I am riding a roller coaster right now. I will get spurious erections for a while then poof! Nothing! I'll have sexual desire for real women ( wife) and at other times I could care less. I fully understand that this experience is different for each person. The whole flatline ... Erection thing. I do get discouraged thinking that I'm doing well then bam! When making love I will last a while then it goes away ( it is actually better then before). I'm still on cialias as doctor prescribed sometimes however erections subside which adds to anxiety and starts that whole dysfunction dance going.
I suppose what I need is some feedback from the members as to how they have been handling their own reboots and if I need to relax and ride this out and heal in time as time heals me. Thanks for reading
D
I hit 70 plus days.... No PMO! I feel better and closer to my wife as this whole ( continuing ) experience involves both of us. I have to say that the urges to pullout and pull up ( porn ) come mostly when I have down time and the house is empty. I continually make an active, informed and right decision to keep true to my promise to myself, my wife and in a way to the public affirmation I've written here. My problem isn't so much steering away from PMO but moreso has to do with my return to sexual normalcy ( well in reality since I had used porn since my midteens returning is a stretch ).
It seems I am riding a roller coaster right now. I will get spurious erections for a while then poof! Nothing! I'll have sexual desire for real women ( wife) and at other times I could care less. I fully understand that this experience is different for each person. The whole flatline ... Erection thing. I do get discouraged thinking that I'm doing well then bam! When making love I will last a while then it goes away ( it is actually better then before). I'm still on cialias as doctor prescribed sometimes however erections subside which adds to anxiety and starts that whole dysfunction dance going.
I suppose what I need is some feedback from the members as to how they have been handling their own reboots and if I need to relax and ride this out and heal in time as time heals me. Thanks for reading
D