Yeah, I discovered this forum and wanted to share my story....
It's been nearly 2 or 3 years since I had ED, as in no erections throughout the day, barely any morning wood. I went to a few psychologist and a urologist, in the end they said there is no problem and that everyone is different concerning libido/sexual drive, and I should live normally and accept it, even after I mentioned that I don't get erections throughout the day. The conclusion was that, since I am a shy and sensitive person it was psychologically normal and that's how my brain was programmed. But looking to the world outside I felt like an outsider compared to my sexually-starved friends. I still felt like something wasn't right.
A little about me, I used to watch A LOT of porn back in middle school/early high school. I never had sex nor ever thought of getting a girlfriend at that time (even though I was dying to ask this girl out that I had a crush on, my shyness/previous old religious issues prevented me from approaching her). So I pretty much grew up watching porn since I was around 14-15 years old and relied on that for my sexual satisfaction.
This year I didn't masturbate to porn as much because I finally got a girlfriend this year at the age of 21, but I still felt something wasn't right and was dissatisfied sometimes when I first starting having sex ad hooked up with her. It took me 3 months to finally penetrate her (I attributed it to the fact she was a tight virgin) with a 50% firm erection, compared with my porn use achieving a 100% erection. After hooking up my porn usage decreased to once every few days or even once a week. (I used to watch porn around every 2 days the year before hooking up). So I am sure I am not addicted to porn because it doesn't cross my mind until I think about it.
Right now I stopped watching porn for about 2 weeks, I get random fantasies that pop up (including weird gay ones because the habit of gay/transexual porn formed about 5 months ago) But I am certain I am heterosexual because girls attract my mind in the outside world and cross my thoughts every while. I felt horny one time in the shower after stopping porn usage, decided to bust a nut and fapped to a random gay fantasy then switched it to a heterosexual fantasy to climax (that's what I usually do when watching porn) And I find this habit disgusting, it was the last time I masturbated 2 weeks ago, after that I have stopped since.
So pretty much I didn't have any sexual contact until I was 20, before that I watched porn all the time. The past year I could imagine myself living without porn, even went a week or two without crossing my mind (probably because of my girlfriend), but I am still suffering from ED during the day and can't always achieve boners with my girlfriend. Around 70% of the time it works but I also suffer from extreme delayed ejaculation and feel numb when having sex, no satisfaction sometimes.
SO in your personal opinions, is this issue related to porn and should I continue avoiding it? I feel like this mentality and habit has been with me all my life and it seems it would never change, I attributed it to smoking weed daily/ and drinking alcohol weekly throughout the year, thinking it was some form of depression. I would greatly appreciate any helpful response, sometimes I don't feel human
Thanks for reading my post.
It's been nearly 2 or 3 years since I had ED, as in no erections throughout the day, barely any morning wood. I went to a few psychologist and a urologist, in the end they said there is no problem and that everyone is different concerning libido/sexual drive, and I should live normally and accept it, even after I mentioned that I don't get erections throughout the day. The conclusion was that, since I am a shy and sensitive person it was psychologically normal and that's how my brain was programmed. But looking to the world outside I felt like an outsider compared to my sexually-starved friends. I still felt like something wasn't right.
A little about me, I used to watch A LOT of porn back in middle school/early high school. I never had sex nor ever thought of getting a girlfriend at that time (even though I was dying to ask this girl out that I had a crush on, my shyness/previous old religious issues prevented me from approaching her). So I pretty much grew up watching porn since I was around 14-15 years old and relied on that for my sexual satisfaction.
This year I didn't masturbate to porn as much because I finally got a girlfriend this year at the age of 21, but I still felt something wasn't right and was dissatisfied sometimes when I first starting having sex ad hooked up with her. It took me 3 months to finally penetrate her (I attributed it to the fact she was a tight virgin) with a 50% firm erection, compared with my porn use achieving a 100% erection. After hooking up my porn usage decreased to once every few days or even once a week. (I used to watch porn around every 2 days the year before hooking up). So I am sure I am not addicted to porn because it doesn't cross my mind until I think about it.
Right now I stopped watching porn for about 2 weeks, I get random fantasies that pop up (including weird gay ones because the habit of gay/transexual porn formed about 5 months ago) But I am certain I am heterosexual because girls attract my mind in the outside world and cross my thoughts every while. I felt horny one time in the shower after stopping porn usage, decided to bust a nut and fapped to a random gay fantasy then switched it to a heterosexual fantasy to climax (that's what I usually do when watching porn) And I find this habit disgusting, it was the last time I masturbated 2 weeks ago, after that I have stopped since.
So pretty much I didn't have any sexual contact until I was 20, before that I watched porn all the time. The past year I could imagine myself living without porn, even went a week or two without crossing my mind (probably because of my girlfriend), but I am still suffering from ED during the day and can't always achieve boners with my girlfriend. Around 70% of the time it works but I also suffer from extreme delayed ejaculation and feel numb when having sex, no satisfaction sometimes.
SO in your personal opinions, is this issue related to porn and should I continue avoiding it? I feel like this mentality and habit has been with me all my life and it seems it would never change, I attributed it to smoking weed daily/ and drinking alcohol weekly throughout the year, thinking it was some form of depression. I would greatly appreciate any helpful response, sometimes I don't feel human
Thanks for reading my post.