23 PIED journal

Hello,

Two weeks ago I met a really nice girl and we hit it of right away and got her in bed with me(this was sort of planned since a mutual friend set it up).
I decided not to have sex with her to start it of right in my eyes.
I had massive blue bals after that and decided to watch some porn for releave.
The next Wednesday we we met up again now for lunch at we went to her place with just cuddling, again huge blue balls and again some porn to get the pressure off.
On Friday I went to her place al prepped up with condoms and a mindset of I'm going to have sex with her.
This was a major letdown since you guessed it ED.
I decided the next day to google 'my dick won't get hard without porn' cause I know it worked just fine with porn 2 day before that.
As soon as I did the test on YBOP I was fully aware of my problem and went out and deleted all my porn, unfollowed every insta thot account and explained my condition to the girl.

So now one week into this nofap, no porn thing I'm getting suppetly horny when I'm with her and just like before I get 90% hard from cuddling and kissing, sadly also the blue balls.
I can get my dick hard with the smallest fantasy and i push it away as soon as it happens.
Last night I just tried masturbating whilst thinking of some school report I was writing, no orgasm but i was able the get harder and stay hard.

With this progress in mind do any of you guys have a prediction of when this might be over and I can sleep with this girl and move on from this?

Much thanks

RW

So, day 8

Since if started this thing I read up on the subject and other people's experiences. The whole urges thing really confused me.

Just like when I quit smoking I didn't have any significant urges in the first few weeks. They just like now have been really easy to resist.

What has been really hard is seeing the girl I'm dating. Seeing her, touching her makes me more horny than any porno ever made me. Yet I know dick probably still won't work properly if I tried to have sex with her.

This really burns me out. I'm lusting for her so bad.

I set out for myself to quit PMO for as long at possible but as soon as my dick is able to stay hard I'll have sex with her. Maybe not having an orgasm the first few times.

I'm just writing down my thoughts since I really don't have anyone to really talk about this. A friend knows but logically doesn't want all the details and progress stories.

Hey unreal,

It's a good thing you identified this problem and joined the forum. There's no telling really how long it'll last, it depends on how you used and how long. For me, I've had to quit porn and masturbation to start seeing any progress whatsoever.

My advice to you would be to stop watching porn entirely. Get rid of any potential porn substitutes as well (instagram, facebook , photos etc.). I'd also strongly recommend you stop masturbating at least until you're having successful sex and you feel recovered.

Good luck and stay PMO free. 

Day 10

Mild morning wood has returned, about 80%.
Never been so happy with a boner
Never returning to porn!
Masturbation and orgasm I'm quitting for 30 days and see what happens with sex. If my penis works then I'll orgasm wil sexy and I'll won't masturbate till the 90 mark.

Thanks all in now for the support

Day 11

Woken up to multiple boner during the night. No morning wood when I woke up but got one randomly in the shower. Not even while touching it.

I had a cycling competition yesterday and my body hurts all over and my lebido hasn't been seen since. Hope that it'll come back.

Another heavy day on the bike and had a weak moment.
Surprisingly I didn't get a boner thinking about porn.
Even if it was just for a minute or so. Maybe the body is just too tired do do anything right now. The urges were strong today. Especially while searching at home squat workouts. The butt thumbnails were abundant and had a hard time not clicking on one of them to take a peak. I held strong tho and didn't give in to the temptation.

Lets see what a good night of sleep does to get my body and mind back to a level that's not completely smashed to bits.

Day 13

So last night I tried sex again.
I have tried to not think about the things I wanted to do during the act and that made me lose the boner a managed to gain.
You can conclude that it wasn't a succes or at least not the sex part.
What it made me realize is that this might take longer then I hoped for.
I must admit that it's really messing with my mojo.
I never felt less of a men then at that moment.
Dreaming she was saying 'just leave this isn't going to work without the sex' while I lied next to her.

I feel like I'm loosing myself and her in the proces.
I know all it takes is time and too stay away from PMO but fuck this shit's hard.

If anyone who's reading this has any advice or just some supportive words. That would be nice.

If you take a specific diet along with abstinence then you will get strong erection every time i have tried it its very sure. One glass of mix beetroot carrot pomegranate juice. Early morning take one two raw garlic with honey chew it and drink hot one cup water.  Take at night turmeric milk along with soaked 2 dry dates 4 almond 2 wallnut and few raisin. Try this just for one weak do regular walking 2 to 3 km. In one weak you will see lot of difference.

Just keep at the reboot, it?ll come back. One thing it might be is performance anxiety, happens a lot when you expect yourself to fail, it?s a self fulfilling prophecy. Just keep your mind off porn and don?t MO, honestly even the whole ?testing your progress? thing isn?t necessary and can be a step back. There?s debate over that of course but try to stay away from anything that might arouse you that isn?t a real interaction with a human female.

Good luck man, glad to see you are making progress thus far and I hope you keep doing so.

Day 14

I had a nocturnal release last night witch was weird since I never had one before.
A good night of sleep really helped my mental state.
Progress is progress and it helps that the girl is very supportive about it and is willing to work thew it with me.

Thanks for the supportive words

Day 18

In the last few days nothing has changed much. Morning wood had a little decrease. Whenever I'm bored i think about busting one out but decide not too.
What I do find weird is that I feel more bored more quickly. This resulting in more cravings for a quick fap to some porn. Doing something else isn't always an option especially at night.

But well I'll keep at it and see what happens next.
Hopefully the NR's stay away, messy busyness  ;D ;D ;D

Day 19

So, I had a breakthrough!
I was siting on the couch, in my computer room not the living room, and went full Al Bundy with my hand on my dick.
Boredom caught me and I started playing with it and I felt my nob for the first time in weeks!!!
I thought lets see if I can get fully hard from this and it worked.

I didn't masturbate to orgasme but I felt like I could have.

Day 23

So, I had a moment of progress and a moment of regression at the same time.
I successfully masturbated to a white wall but with that I didn't reach the 30 nofap mark.
Waking up with super strong morning wood and not having had an orgasm in 3 weeks made me have a weak moment.
I'll restart my counter and try for another 30 days off PM free.
Feeling my penis again like I'm 13 again. I'm loving it. If this feels good I can't imagine having sex again.

Day 45

If gone back to regular masturbation. I get harder every day and wake up with the hardest morning woods ever.

It does feel a bit weird, being able to masturbate at any given moment to while doing whatever.

But progress is progress