Hey Danny,
What kind of table saw are you restoring? I found a really old Craftsman (60s era?) rusting under a tarp, purchased it and brought it home and restored it...was a great project and I still use it all the time.
Well I'm just starting my journey too. I had a similar experience with a woman friend of mine that I've known for quite a while. We used to work together, and I had a crush and became very good friends with her, but I was married, and she had a BF. We would spend a lot of time together, and she was someone I could really open up to....I've told her things I would never think of telling anyone else, including my wife. I've known her through 4 different boyfriends now...each time it was painful for me when she got a new BF, but being married, I had no business thinking it should be me.
She has since moved to another town, but after her most recent break up, we started texting and calling a lot..every day. I happened to be travelling to her town for work, and decided to visit her for a couple days. I'm never 100% sure, but I think she was hoping we would hook up...our conversations leading up to the visit hinted at it a bit, and definitely left that option open. We had fun little dinner dates, ect. and afterwards she made some references to being sore and needing a massage, and even let me sleep in her bed (with the dog between us, though). I felt so awkward and couldn't get myself to make a move, and was also afraid that I might not be able to get it up. I wrote if off to "sex would probably ruin our friendship, anyway, so its probably for the best that I didn't"... She thanked me profusely for the visit and said she had a great time, and it was just what she needed-ect., but I had this pit in my stomach that something was different. On my way home, I had this horrible feeling of humiliation and failure that I couldn't shake. She pretty much stopped contacting me after that, and what contact we did have was friendly but abrupt.
She texted me the other day, and wanted to tell me that she went out on a date (no sex)...I think she needed to talk to somebody about it. Again, it hurt, but what am I supposed to expect? Then I told her that I think I have an addiction...and I opened up about the porn. She knows that I watched it and that my wife had caught me with it, and was pissed, but I never told her how much i watched it. I think me opening up to her like that got her all excited, and we had a great conversation, and she offered to be my accountability partner. She's also really into yoga and meditation, and says that those practices could help redirect my sexual energy. When I told her I was worried about my upcoming trip to Hawaii (bikinis, ect), she said I should just masturbate to the bikinis, as long as i'm not watching porn. Some accountability partner, huh? LOL.