S85
Member
Hi everyone
Male 31
Engaged to partner
No kids
Self employed
work from PC at home
First journal ever , first time I research the topic and do this more seriously than ever before.
Been trying to quit for what seems like years.
Managed to stay sober for a month or two at the most
Easy if I was traveling or off grid
Most recent dry period: 4weeks after a period of 2weeks off grid.
Relapsed to porn yeasterday, slowly started with bikini babes on Pinterest and then escalated.
Gateway and trigger point: Pinterest
Actions: blocked all porn access and social media , torrents, YouTube,image searches on work PC.
Need to block iPhone and forget the password.
Open gateways ( danger points): fianc?es laptop and iMac in the kitchen that belongs to house owners.
Can't block them as it would expose my addiction );
Would be good to tell about my addiction to partner but time is not right
Maybe can tell my brother
Day0
9am
Spent 30min watching p on iPhone in bed , that sucked but I made it to this forum and started this journal in the end
Sunny morning time for walking the dog and having a day of physical non digital work. Really need to stay off laptop in living room and iMac in kitchen. ... Considering eating my last tiny bit of hash I got left (got it 4years ago and save it as a remedy for special occasions or if I m too stressed out our cant sleep, use tiny doses) and make myself fully engaged outdoors all day.
Ok Day0 - Fresh Start
Here we go
Male 31
Engaged to partner
No kids
Self employed
work from PC at home
First journal ever , first time I research the topic and do this more seriously than ever before.
Been trying to quit for what seems like years.
Managed to stay sober for a month or two at the most
Easy if I was traveling or off grid
Most recent dry period: 4weeks after a period of 2weeks off grid.
Relapsed to porn yeasterday, slowly started with bikini babes on Pinterest and then escalated.
Gateway and trigger point: Pinterest
Actions: blocked all porn access and social media , torrents, YouTube,image searches on work PC.
Need to block iPhone and forget the password.
Open gateways ( danger points): fianc?es laptop and iMac in the kitchen that belongs to house owners.
Can't block them as it would expose my addiction );
Would be good to tell about my addiction to partner but time is not right
Maybe can tell my brother
Day0
9am
Spent 30min watching p on iPhone in bed , that sucked but I made it to this forum and started this journal in the end
Sunny morning time for walking the dog and having a day of physical non digital work. Really need to stay off laptop in living room and iMac in kitchen. ... Considering eating my last tiny bit of hash I got left (got it 4years ago and save it as a remedy for special occasions or if I m too stressed out our cant sleep, use tiny doses) and make myself fully engaged outdoors all day.
Ok Day0 - Fresh Start
Here we go