obeyandevolve
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I start this journal on my 11th day w/o P and my 9th day w/o O.
I'll dedicate this first post to personal background info:
English is not my native language. If my English is funny some times you are free to laugh - I'm laughing with you.
I'm 47 y/o and have been using porn for ages - I was an early adapter of internet and straight away I started to jerk off to it . Before that, I had been using paper porn and VHS, but I must say that during the analog era, I could still use only my fantasy every now and then when M (but not since internet, as far as I can remember).
I'm single, straight and have no kids. I used to be in relationships on and off or have me some occasional one night stands even though I've never been any sort of a Casanova.
Now, I haven't had a single sexual encounter in over 13 years (I crunched the numbers the other night)!
I've been pretty OK with this sex-less life and have felt like I haven't been "up to it". Perhaps all the PMO helped me staying like that for all these years?
I'm quite handsome, well educated, well mannered and have a nice job - can't really see why I should be single or "not up to it" when it comes to sexual relations unless I'm asexual.
I'm pretty sure that I'm not asexual - can't imagine anyone asexual would be PMO:ing as much as I normally do :
I had not given a single thought to heavy porn use being able to reprogram my brain until I stumbled upon YBOP while researching new ways of expanding my PMO experiences (more on that in my next post).
After reading and watching some clarifying info on the subject, I'm now planning on staying away from porn for a long while and I'm expecting some good things to come from that.
I do have some fears about losing my sex-drive and libido if I don't keep the mojo going. I hear how stupid it sounds, but I do. As I stopped using porn (only11 days so far) I have had a really hard time to get a decent boner other than while sleeping.
Some of the positive outcomes I'm hoping for are:
So, here we go - journal started, more posts to follow!
I'll dedicate this first post to personal background info:
English is not my native language. If my English is funny some times you are free to laugh - I'm laughing with you.
I'm 47 y/o and have been using porn for ages - I was an early adapter of internet and straight away I started to jerk off to it . Before that, I had been using paper porn and VHS, but I must say that during the analog era, I could still use only my fantasy every now and then when M (but not since internet, as far as I can remember).
I'm single, straight and have no kids. I used to be in relationships on and off or have me some occasional one night stands even though I've never been any sort of a Casanova.
Now, I haven't had a single sexual encounter in over 13 years (I crunched the numbers the other night)!
I've been pretty OK with this sex-less life and have felt like I haven't been "up to it". Perhaps all the PMO helped me staying like that for all these years?
I'm quite handsome, well educated, well mannered and have a nice job - can't really see why I should be single or "not up to it" when it comes to sexual relations unless I'm asexual.
I'm pretty sure that I'm not asexual - can't imagine anyone asexual would be PMO:ing as much as I normally do :
I had not given a single thought to heavy porn use being able to reprogram my brain until I stumbled upon YBOP while researching new ways of expanding my PMO experiences (more on that in my next post).
After reading and watching some clarifying info on the subject, I'm now planning on staying away from porn for a long while and I'm expecting some good things to come from that.
I do have some fears about losing my sex-drive and libido if I don't keep the mojo going. I hear how stupid it sounds, but I do. As I stopped using porn (only11 days so far) I have had a really hard time to get a decent boner other than while sleeping.
Some of the positive outcomes I'm hoping for are:
- Freeing up the loads of time that I normally use for PMO
- Less procrastination (Sitting at the computer masturbating has been my favorite way to procrastinate)
- More socializing - might get me back on the love/sex play-field/track again?
- Any porn induced ED to go away - more interest in the real deal!
So, here we go - journal started, more posts to follow!