It has been 72 hours since my last PMO.
I have tried many times in the last 25 years to curtail this tailspin. Why is it so easy to get sucked in? What is it with me? I've done drugs but was never addicted. I drink but I'm not alcoholic. I've never smoked. Why is THIS my addiction? I used to make a New Year's resolution every year that I would stop. Some years I'd get maybe 4 days. I have occasionally gone almost two weeks, and it seems that for the first few days there were events that prevented me from PMO, and then it got easier for the next week. THEN I'd start thinking about it a lot.
Getting an erection has never been an issue for me, but delayed ejaculation has plagued me since my teens. There are always those times when there has been elements of something new or even a little danger that made it a lot easier to O, like a new or illicit relationships, risky sex, etc. But then back to the same. I used to be able to fantasize during sex to help get myself off, but even in my last relationship with a beautiful sexy, adventurous woman, I'd have to finish myself off. And now that is done. And with that, I need to make a change.
I started with installing K9 on my computer. Not perfect, and of course I know the password, but it makes me think when it pops up a message. And I've been reading Reboot Nation. I last tried this six months ago. We'll see how it goes.
I have tried many times in the last 25 years to curtail this tailspin. Why is it so easy to get sucked in? What is it with me? I've done drugs but was never addicted. I drink but I'm not alcoholic. I've never smoked. Why is THIS my addiction? I used to make a New Year's resolution every year that I would stop. Some years I'd get maybe 4 days. I have occasionally gone almost two weeks, and it seems that for the first few days there were events that prevented me from PMO, and then it got easier for the next week. THEN I'd start thinking about it a lot.
Getting an erection has never been an issue for me, but delayed ejaculation has plagued me since my teens. There are always those times when there has been elements of something new or even a little danger that made it a lot easier to O, like a new or illicit relationships, risky sex, etc. But then back to the same. I used to be able to fantasize during sex to help get myself off, but even in my last relationship with a beautiful sexy, adventurous woman, I'd have to finish myself off. And now that is done. And with that, I need to make a change.
I started with installing K9 on my computer. Not perfect, and of course I know the password, but it makes me think when it pops up a message. And I've been reading Reboot Nation. I last tried this six months ago. We'll see how it goes.