OccasionallyIwearGlasses
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Hi all, so a short story about myself, I am 25 years old, full time student studying finance, part time shelf filler for a large grocery chain, never had a girlfriend and do not want one (that is a whole other "can of beans" not worth getting into). I don't really like sharing myself with others, neither do I like hang out or be social with other's, primarily because I don't like what my current friends talk about, so I am a bit of a loner, but that's how I like it.
I've been on and off PMO for the last 10 years at least, I've tried to quit many times, but always end up convincing myself that a small look won't hurt me, and like clockwork, every time I view porn I end up masturbating. I really want to change this behaviour of mine, and my first initial thoughts to the desire to masturbate, a big trigger for me is boredom.
When I'm not working, attending university, or learning my university course materials, I can find myself typically surfing through YouTube and Twitch, I watch a lot of IRL streamers (girls ofc) and my youtube videos can be innocent, but it takes such little effort to get onto videos of a more triggering nature.
I want to quit masturbation and porn because of my poor ability to concentrate. I find myself nodding off most days when I'm trying to learn, or even when I'm watching videos online, and I believe its because of my desensitised brain to powerful stimuli (porn).
Thank you for reading my post, it's not much, but it's a start.
I've been on and off PMO for the last 10 years at least, I've tried to quit many times, but always end up convincing myself that a small look won't hurt me, and like clockwork, every time I view porn I end up masturbating. I really want to change this behaviour of mine, and my first initial thoughts to the desire to masturbate, a big trigger for me is boredom.
When I'm not working, attending university, or learning my university course materials, I can find myself typically surfing through YouTube and Twitch, I watch a lot of IRL streamers (girls ofc) and my youtube videos can be innocent, but it takes such little effort to get onto videos of a more triggering nature.
I want to quit masturbation and porn because of my poor ability to concentrate. I find myself nodding off most days when I'm trying to learn, or even when I'm watching videos online, and I believe its because of my desensitised brain to powerful stimuli (porn).
Thank you for reading my post, it's not much, but it's a start.