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sempervirilis
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Fellas - I've struggled with porn addiction for 10+ years, and have been actively trying to quit for the past 6 years with great, but un-lasting success. I've moved from a young man that watched hours of pornography and masturbated every...single...day to a slightly older man who doesn't MO (but still Ms sometimes), living with a great girlfriend who I am fully able to have a loving, satisfying physical and emotional relationship with. Went from a guy who couldn't get hard during sex on most occasions to a guy who never even thinks about!
Great progress? Yes! Heck yeah, it's been a shit storm of a ride. I used to have a thread on here and deleted it - deleted it after I thought I was through with this issue.Turns out, with all the progress I've made there is still the need to put myself back on track as I've recently started to go back to various forms of P in recent days and need to nip it in the bud.
Who I am: I'm bi, have been since college. Have dated women and men, to a limited extent (most sexual stuff am not into with men), and am fully comfortable with this fact. Prefer women for more serious relationships and for sex, so by and large I "operate" as a "straight man", but I always refer to myself as bi. My porn habit, however, quickly moved into ever increasing variety and eventually landed on mostly gay porn which freaked me out because a lot of the stuff I liked to watch were things that I would never participate in in real life. I used to use photo blogs, videos, and craigslist - get random people to respond to fake ads I would post, respond to ads others post, all for the thrill of it all. For compulsion. For my addiction to pornographic materials.
My Process: I slowly and painfully moved off of pornography. I tried every trick in the book. I put blockers on my phone, computer, everything. Avoided unnecessary alone time with tech, exercised more, went from healthy eating, to power eating, to vegan eating. I kicked my worst habits first and slowly weaned myself off everything. The only thing, the last thing that I cling to is...craigslist.
Whenever I feel stressed or numb and need a quick fix, that's what I'll turn to. Not all the time, but more recently in the past couple weeks. Today I turned to it, feeling stressed after a fight with family members. I am here today on September 13, 2017 to finally begin again my thread, to kick this last bad habit, to finally move my life entirely forward and stand upon the strong foundation I have built for years, all the past success - to guide myself forward.
And I need all your support which is why I'd like to say hello again to all my brothers in this challenging battle we find ourselves in. Good luck boys, now let's work together as men.
Please feel free to reach out with questions on anything. I've been in this game for years, and even though I'm writing to further clean up my act, I've had a lot of success with this and have certainly faced some tough obstacles.
Great progress? Yes! Heck yeah, it's been a shit storm of a ride. I used to have a thread on here and deleted it - deleted it after I thought I was through with this issue.Turns out, with all the progress I've made there is still the need to put myself back on track as I've recently started to go back to various forms of P in recent days and need to nip it in the bud.
Who I am: I'm bi, have been since college. Have dated women and men, to a limited extent (most sexual stuff am not into with men), and am fully comfortable with this fact. Prefer women for more serious relationships and for sex, so by and large I "operate" as a "straight man", but I always refer to myself as bi. My porn habit, however, quickly moved into ever increasing variety and eventually landed on mostly gay porn which freaked me out because a lot of the stuff I liked to watch were things that I would never participate in in real life. I used to use photo blogs, videos, and craigslist - get random people to respond to fake ads I would post, respond to ads others post, all for the thrill of it all. For compulsion. For my addiction to pornographic materials.
My Process: I slowly and painfully moved off of pornography. I tried every trick in the book. I put blockers on my phone, computer, everything. Avoided unnecessary alone time with tech, exercised more, went from healthy eating, to power eating, to vegan eating. I kicked my worst habits first and slowly weaned myself off everything. The only thing, the last thing that I cling to is...craigslist.
Whenever I feel stressed or numb and need a quick fix, that's what I'll turn to. Not all the time, but more recently in the past couple weeks. Today I turned to it, feeling stressed after a fight with family members. I am here today on September 13, 2017 to finally begin again my thread, to kick this last bad habit, to finally move my life entirely forward and stand upon the strong foundation I have built for years, all the past success - to guide myself forward.
And I need all your support which is why I'd like to say hello again to all my brothers in this challenging battle we find ourselves in. Good luck boys, now let's work together as men.
Please feel free to reach out with questions on anything. I've been in this game for years, and even though I'm writing to further clean up my act, I've had a lot of success with this and have certainly faced some tough obstacles.