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Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: April 17, 2018, 10:20:11 AM »
NoFap 90 Day Report

Hey guys! I know I haven't posted in a while, but I thought I'd give my 90 day report. After my failure last time I really had to get away from stressing over NoFap and focus more on improving my life and sticking to my habits. The past NoFap experience I failed miserably, so if you feel like giving up, KEEP GOING! It was an all time low. 70 days or so and then giving in. I ultimately broke down that night and knew I couldn't beat this thing alone. The next day I wrote a "relapse paper." I haven't read it much lately because I'm focused on going forward, but it's a constant reminder of how far I've come. I wrote down how I felt after that relapse and "why" I'm doing NoFap in the first place. Edging led me down the wrong path. But here I am now! These 90 days haven't always been sunshine and rainbows. Lots of wet dreams and flatlines, but I'm really seeing progress.

What I've Noticed
I'll just write down all the common NoFap benefits that I've experienced. I'm much more of myself and less in my head. More energy and drive to be successful. Recently I've noticed a much deeper voice and better social interactions with guys and girls alike. It feels great, but I've got a long way to go. Constant improvement is key. I hooked up with a girl this past weekend for the first time in a while (been w/ 2 girls these 90 days) and I can say that it felt great connecting with a real girl over pixels on a screen. I orgasmed, which has been my only release. My confidence is still unparalleled compared to my old self, and I look forward to staying more connected with women. A girlfriend isn't currently a priority, but I have now begun to treat women like people with genuine interest in them rather than being focused on outcomes. Living in the moment. I want to be more present everyday and keep meditating. Cold showers just about everyday have also helped with my confidence in terms of NoFap. I run every morning and focus on recovery activities. I have this app called "BrainBuddy" that has worked wonders in terms of getting my morning started with PMO recovery. To sum it up: Keep going, NoFap will CHANGE your life!

How I'm going Forward
Sticking to my habits as I said will be key for continued success. The journey has just begun. I want to encourage you all to GET UP if you fall. Don't binge, just get up and LEARN then IMPLEMENT a new plan. So important. I'm going to continue going toward my goals as the school year ends. It's been great and I'm going to continue NoFap ... I only plan on orgasm with a real woman. Not Porn or masturbation. Real connection! The opposite of addiction is connection. Just remember that.

FIGHT ON NOFAPPERS. If I can do it after failing many times; you damn well can too. Change your life.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 26, 2018, 05:41:32 PM »
Day 9

Thought I'd give an update to where I'm at. Just been real busy with school; its been a tough week. I'm drained from the amount of work I have and have little balance in my life. That's gotta get better. I felt really confident a couple days back, but the flatline has been going for a couple days now. Really zaps your confidence and charisma. I'll press onwards and live a more positive life. I gotta get out of bed right when I get up, which has been something I've been missing. Let's do this, I know we can beat the addiction! Round 2 is gonna pay off.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 17, 2018, 09:00:48 PM »
Day 0: Relapse

As mentioned by my man achilles above; I was in a dangerous state these past couple days. I ended up relapsing last night to PMO. It's one of the worst feelings I've had in my life. Today at school I was often times a shell of myself, tired, and lacking confidence. Yesterday after watching PMO I broke down and cried. I felt powerless. I learned some valuable lessons from this relapse. Even after 70+ days edging will come back to bite you. No image or video on YouTube will ever lead you in the right direction. It started small and ended with a relapse. It's a slippery slope. I didn't binge to PMO and am getting right back on the horse. I'll be working on myself more, meditating and practicing mantra, while keeping my relapse paper with me at all times. I wrote on a sheet of paper how I felt today and yesterday after PMO and WHY I'm doing this in the first place. Plan to carry it around wherever I go. Wanna keep this fresh and not forget the Hell PMO brought me to. I let you all down. I let myself down. Time to get back up and quit forever. I'm tired of all the BS of "trying" to quit for years. No more trying. Just doing. Let's live a life worth living. A life without addiction. A life of fulfillment. 

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 16, 2018, 11:13:29 PM »
Day 78

Counting this day as an L. Looked at pornographic images but didn’t jack off. This is a bad feeling; edging has really set me back. Feeling less comfortable and confident in social settings, while being unable to get my mind off Pmo. I’ve come too far to give in and I find myself less hopeful for the future. Can’t believe I’ve been wasting so much time edging. I let myself down and you guys too. Stay strong everyone; edging won’t help you recover in any way.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 16, 2018, 02:05:18 AM »
Day 77

Really damn tough day. Had the most urges and temptations since starting NoFap. I didn’t MO, but saw some images of P. It was really rough. I’m going to bed later tonight and hope to get a fresh start tomorrow. As I saw in my brothers journal on the forum “insanity is doing the same thing over and over while expecting different results.” I surfed the web today and exposed myself to unsettling images. I keep looking on my phone out of habit and searching google images. It’s a form of edging that’s got to stop. I plan on turning off my phone most of tomorrow and having a productive day. I gotta remember why I started. PMO makes me a shell of my self and socially awkward, while making me feel miserable and empty. Sure those images get my aroused and excited, but at what cost? I appreciate the support I seriously thought I was gonna relapse today. Came out a better and wiser man. I’m not going back to PMO. No way.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 14, 2018, 11:40:13 PM »
Day 76

Woke up a bit late today to say the least. Slow start to my day and my temptations from yesterday carried over. I got through it by taking a cold shower and getting out of the house. I was less productive doing homework today too. Whenever I go out to party with friends I’m way less productive the next day. Less sleep and poorer diet. Not a good combo. That’s gotta change for me to be successful this New Year. I’m not perfect but I’ll gladly keep learning and going on this NoFap journey. I’ve seen so many positive changes in the way I approach life and how i carry myself. Going towards my goals and won’t stop! Met a girl I thought was cute last night and we’ll see where that goes. My primary focus is on bettering myself and being less focused on some of those distractions trying to carry me away. Just my thoughts lately; I’ve made NoFap difficult as of recently due to me not dealing with boredom and stress, but that’s all gonna change. Let’s keep growing, this life is gonna be amazing.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 14, 2018, 11:34:12 PM »
Stay clean and live a true life, be the best version of yourself and it’s all possible. Good luck guys.

You're being a great example here and showing a very positive spirit! Keep it that way and all the best for you, looks very promising so far to see you at the success stories soon!  :)

Thanks for the support bro! There’s been great progress thus far. I’m not perfect but I’ll just keep getting better each day. I know you’ll do the same. Appreciate it man!

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 14, 2018, 12:36:10 PM »
Day 75

I had a really awesome day to begin with. I got a ton of work done and at pretty much done with all my homework. Good to see. However, later in the day I felt tempted and had a close call. Having fatigue from the work I was doing to being triggered on YouTube doesn’t help. Gotta move on and take a cold shower this morning. It was a good day; just gotta stay vigilant.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 12, 2018, 10:37:23 PM »
Day 74

Solid day. I was pretty tired early, but got more energized as the day went along. I plan on reading before bed and did some earlier as well. I'm working out tomorrow morning to help me get my day started. Difficult school semester so it's important that I stay on top of things. Overall, I'm much more magnetic with my personality as I noticed today and got out of my comfort zone. Really good to see. Keep on grinding NoFappers.

Ages 20-29 / Re: Free At Last
« on: January 12, 2018, 08:54:08 AM »
Hey dude be proud of having a good streak. Begin the next one and make it better than ever. Cell phones accompanied by isolation are a deadly combo. Get out in public and stay busy. Create some new habits to replace that one and you’ll be more on your way to defeating PMO! Get back on the train man.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 11, 2018, 11:23:37 PM »
Day 73

Good day of work. Not much class so I ended up being pretty productive. Got tired, but I think that’s partially from a wet dream I had last night. Kinda takes some energy from ya. Gonna continue improving and stick to my schedule for a successful semester at school. Stay clean and live a true life, be the best version of yourself and it’s all possible. Good luck guys.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 10, 2018, 11:30:54 PM »
Day 72

A bit off today, but recovering well. I had a lot of class today, so was occupied with that. After class I was too lazy and didn't get shit done. That's gotta change for tomorrow; as I set out an hourly schedule to be productive. Gonna start up again and learn from my mistakes, gotta continue to grow. I had some serious "woman attraction" the first day of school, but recovering from a couple nights ago set me back. Time to regain my composure and live a fulfilled life. Meaningful work tomorrow; keep it up everyone. Appreciate the great support.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 10, 2018, 12:16:30 AM »
Day 71

Rough day this time. I woke up really sick from alcohol poisoning. It was my birthday so I decided to just go all out and made some dumb decisions. I learned from this mistake and intend on quitting drinking this semester. Was totally unproductive today and really feeling like crap. Drinking excessively really isn't worth it at all. I couldn't even eat today it was so bad. Well, tomorrow's a new day. You live and you learn. Gotta get started tomorrow on a good note despite getting less sleep. I'll stick with it and live with the consequences of my actions.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 09, 2018, 12:11:39 PM »
Day 70

I had a solid first day of school. Was really energetic around people despite having a lot of classes and feel great at this stage of my NoFap journey. Overcame anxiety and talked to people and displayed good confidence. It's good to see progress and to be doing meaningful work being back from winter break. Keep it up NoFappers.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 07, 2018, 10:31:07 PM »
Day 69

Decent day today. I woke up hungover after a bit too much to drink, but rebounded and was productive. Got some things done and ready for my first day at school tomorrow. Big day ahead where I’ll be doing much more compared to break, so it will be a good transition. Great semester ahead where I wanna focus on the goals I’m heading to in life. Godspeed NoFappers.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 07, 2018, 03:46:28 AM »
Day 68

Pretty solid day overall. I drove a ton today to school and was pretty tired getting back. I was a little tempted early today, but got through it with deep breathing and accountability. I went to a birthday party with my friend today and felt pretty shy at first, but got outta my shell as the night went along. To be honest dudes; I experienced some serious woman attraction tonight. I didn't even wanna hook up or any of that previous BS when I was PMOing; I just wanted to talk and see what was up with their lives. It was cool to detach from that kinda stuff and even got a girl's number at the bar tonight. Don't go out too often, but went out with my friend for his birthday. I had a great time and saw some serious change in my mannerisms. Really awesome to see. SO glad I didn't relapse, PMO is never worth it. The change is real. Make this New Year the Best.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 05, 2018, 10:19:01 PM »
Day 67

Last day in town before I go back to school. Urges were definitely the most frequent today since I began this NoFap journey. It was an all day thing and there were times I could have given in. Urges passed finally, which is great news. I'm gonna have to meditate more and stay disciplined as I go back. I can't do this on my own. I love the encouragement here, from my friends on NoFap and from my spiritual practices. It's all these things. I don't wanna go back to that low point in my life where I was socially inept and lost in life. That's not an option. Looking at pictures cannot be good for me in the long term. I've gotta break this addiction down and not let it get the best of me. We can DO THIS. Great New Year ahead!

Ages 20-29 / Re: 30 Days PMO free
« on: January 04, 2018, 10:46:15 PM »
Get past those urges man! It's a marathon not a sprint, keep forming good habits and make NoFap and your life a huge success. Look forward to following your progress dude.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 04, 2018, 10:45:00 PM »
Hey bro. Your story is really inspiring, congrats man. Am on day 5 myself, and reading stories like yours keeps me motivated. Thanks for sharing

Hey man, keep up the good work it's worth it bro! I'm still early on in my life with my goals, but it's one day at a time. Thanks for the encouragement man I'll keep going!

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 04, 2018, 10:12:04 PM »
Day 66

Had one close call today out of boredom and fatigue, but lived another day. I gotta put my phone down and track my time on electronics. I got out and active most of the day on a good note; ran a lot and played some basketball. Just took a cold shower, which really helped with the urges I've had. A thing I noticed was after wet dreams I'm way more tempted to fap the next day. I had one last night and the urges carry over to the next day for sure. Anyways; I wanna focus on getting through the break and staying busy to beat this addiction. Stay strong.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 03, 2018, 11:25:59 PM »
Day 65

Started off the day kinda upset with some personal things going on. I got in a better mood after I stopped continually thinking bad thoughts and chose to run + think positive. Good day hanging out with friends and family. School is coming up and I gotta make sure I'm in the right mindset when I get back. I'll continue to keep up my habits and read before bed tonight. After a tougher day yesterday I felt much better today after my bits of anger and frustration early today. There's a certain emptiness to lust and porn addiction that tries to fill a void but never satisfies. Found that out even more in depth yesterday when that tried to overtake me. Never going back to that way of living man. Gotta go towards my goals and live a happier life.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 03, 2018, 09:24:13 PM »
Thanks a lot for your motivating words! It's impressive to follow your dedication to your daily routines and it's a key to success.

In terms of your struggle I remember the HALT-rule of a fellow rebooter, it means you should avoid to be hungry, angry, lonely or tired. Those states of mind will lower your guards and make you vulnerable. You already made it past the worst stage, just keep saying "No!" and it will become easier with every partial success!

Thanks for the support bro. I'll keep doing the key things that make me successful with NoFap for sure! I've never heard of HALT before, but that rings true in my own personal life. I was tired and could've let PMO come back. Close call, but it's been a lot easier today after my morning cold shower. I made up this phrase in my journal after that incident that kinda clicked with me: "When I'm peeking at pictures that is my brain seeking PMO." It's so true, just a slippery slope that I gotta realize. No sexual stimulation via pixels is gonna help you.

Ages 20-29 / Re: The final countdown
« on: January 03, 2018, 09:05:27 AM »
Hey dude just learn from your relapse and get back on! It's a long path, but you can do it man. Get back up!

Ages 20-29 / Re: The Journey to Freedom: My Journal
« on: January 02, 2018, 09:39:18 PM »
Day 64

More difficult day today overall. I slept pretty badly last night and it kinda carried over to my day. Meditated again today on a positive note. Things went south when I took a nap and woke up feeling inclined to search for some images. This always leads down a bad path: don't wanna just peek at stimulating images anymore: my brain just wants PMO back and a quick dopamine kick. Thankfully a friend called and I stumbled out of my half-awake state. I got a good lift in afterwards and am going to read prior to going to bed tonight. After this post I'll put up all electronics and stay sober minded. Gotta stay vigilant to beat this addiction.

Ages 20-29 / Re: My 8 months of No Pmo
« on: January 02, 2018, 12:52:37 PM »
Hey man. Pretty awesome you went 8 months no PMO. Learn from the relapse and make sure those circumstances don't lead to PMO again. Form a good routine with good habits (meditation, cold showers, reading, just stay busy...) and it will pay off! It will help your relationship and give you that needed confidence. Good luck man, you can recover!

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