Ultimate New Start !!

Hi everyone,

i'm writing this topic because i feel i need to do it , it's going to be a long one since i never did it before. i apologize about my english : it's not my native language.

I liked the concept of making a Journal and being anonymous : so we can speak honestly without fear . So , i'm making this topic to share my experience and discuss ideas.

I'm 21 years old , i'm an engineering student , i have struggled with pmo since the age of 15 years old. Since the begining, i knew it's a bad thing that i should'nt do. So i was trying to stop from the beginning but i wasn't very serious. Because of my lack of knowledge about this issue , i thought : it's gonna be easy to give it up anytime later. My use wasn't in a continuous way :In general , one time to three per week. 5-10 min each time. there were periods of time when i stopped fore weeks and i relapsed again.

the longest period i stopped pmo was : 8 months ,  4 years ago. followed by 4 months stop the next year. Since then , i struggled : always failing after 2-3 weeks period. MY only technique till then , was to say to myself : It's the last time , i'll never do it again.

This year , I discovered NoFap in January :  So i decided to make a new start : i bought a book to help myself and i kept reading topics to motivate myself . I had a very strong motivation , But after one month i began to be less strict with myself and tolerate triggering stuffs. I also gave up reading my book. That lead me to relapse after 2 months.

Since then again , i relapsed every 2-3 weeks. The last time was Today.

That was a brief presentation of my story with Pmo , I'm writing this stuff : firstly , to motivate my self every time i feel weak and to remember my self why i want stop. Secondly , i know if i just simply keep telling myself : i won't do it again, I'd relapse again and again .. So i'm doing something different. I hope that this journal will help in my journey.

I decided to begin a new Start ,to combine all the lessons i learned from my previous attempts.
So can you tell me please , what works with you to keep a high determination and motivation ?
Any Tips or advice to manage Cravings / Urges ?
Any Advice or anything else to discuss also.

Thanks , Wish me good luck this time. I'm gonna update my progress.

13 Days & 43% of my 'one month' goal achieved , It was not very difficult till now , no special urges.

But i'm feeling that it's going to come soon because as i said it's during the third week that it becomes more difficult for me .

I'll try to achieve this one month goal no matter what 

Already 23 days of my 'one month' goal achieved. i have a had a difficult time last week-end .. sexual thoughts all  saturday.. I was enable to focus on what i was doing .. sunday i tought about relapsing  ,

But  finaly i read some articles on YBOP and Nofap , read a book about healing , all that encouraged me a lot not to give up and continue my journey .

Now , i'm more determinated to achieve my One month Goal and keep fighting !

Remember , every day is a fight that we must win !

First completed Challenge : 1 month ;D ;D.

I'm happy to write this post. i've experienced one difficult period, as i mentioned on the previous post, during this month. But finaly , i did it and completed the challenge. Now it's time to look forward :So , i decided to make another one month challenge.

I'll not fix more than this amount of time , because in my opinion longer periods will seem so long and difficult to achieve and may lead to relapse. So, One month is the perfect interval.

Good luck everybody 

40 days on hardmode reached !  ;D

Glad to tell you that my journey is still progressing. I still have some sexual toughts from time to time but nothing out of control , i just stop thinking and focus on something else.

I'm trying to keep focusing on important things in my life and not to have a lot of free time : planing activities . That's working well for the moment,

Keep fighting 

50 days 

i've had some difficult moments during this last ten days , but still under control. I still feel the power and motivation to keep going through this journey.

Good luck everyone , keep trying and believing. Be sure that one day u'll make it  ;D

76 days on hardmode 

I've been on holidays the last three weeks , that's why i didn't update my journal. Everything was all right , no urges out of control , only normal things. i don't know if it's really the beginning of healing or because i was busy with so much stuff ..

So, as you can see i'm happy that i finished the second ' one month challenge ' and i'm already on the third one. this is the longest streak since more than 2 years : a good motivation to keep going.  next Goal : 90 days !

Wish  good luck to all of you in your journey  , Keep fighting guys 

hey! nice to see and follow your progress! you r doin a very good job!

thank you for your encouraging comment 

[size=12pt]Today , i completed my first ultimate goal : 90 days ! [/size]  .

I must say that the last days were very difficult. I was very closed to relapse , big urges to look for triggering stuff.

But , i didn't want to start my counter from zero again , i wanted to keep progressing. it became a big motivation for me to make this streak really the ultimate one until being healed , i think that starting again from zero would be very depressing.

Well , i can't say that my try is perfect. As almost every sucess story , people relapsed many times during a very large period. For me, i can say that i saw some triggering stuff , either accidentally in some movies or intentionnally in weakness times , but NO PMO and that was my goal in the beginning . That's why i didn't consider this as relapse. We're humans , perfection isn't human 

So , i'll Keep GOING and fighting. I fix a new Goal : another 30 days  to reach  : 120 DAYS !

Good luck everybody , Keep believing that one day u'll make it !