Overcomer2017
Member
I am a 52 yo divorced male who has been a porn viewer and masturbater since 1979. A month ago I had scheduled an hour with an $350/hr escort. I knew I had watched too much porn so I abstained from jerking off for a week. With prior escorts and my ex-wife, I had erection and ejaculation problems. In fact most of my sexual life with a partner I have experienced these ailments. Both problems occurred last month and I didn't even finish the time with her. I left, after telling her to keep the money. I was a bit disappointed about the financial loss, though this event made me release I have a porn problem.
About a week later while enjoying porn, I recalled several years ago I said to myself that one day I would consider masturbating to porn an addiction. That 'one day' has arrived!
I will be taking this recovery very slowly. Besides the fact that PIED realization and recovery is a major issue for me, I am also working on switching jobs from an SOB boss, and trying to reclaim an old business desire. (This desire has no sexual connection.) I am also trying dating again. I?ve been divorced five years and would like to be (sexually and non-sexually) social again with the ladies. Lastly I developed a "taste" for getting drunk while masturbating to porn about three years ago and am concerned about my alcohol intake.
Thank you.
About a week later while enjoying porn, I recalled several years ago I said to myself that one day I would consider masturbating to porn an addiction. That 'one day' has arrived!
I will be taking this recovery very slowly. Besides the fact that PIED realization and recovery is a major issue for me, I am also working on switching jobs from an SOB boss, and trying to reclaim an old business desire. (This desire has no sexual connection.) I am also trying dating again. I?ve been divorced five years and would like to be (sexually and non-sexually) social again with the ladies. Lastly I developed a "taste" for getting drunk while masturbating to porn about three years ago and am concerned about my alcohol intake.
Thank you.