ALEXEI_157
New Member
Sorry for my English, I'm from Mexico. First of all, thanks to you for creating this forum and sharing your experiences, I hope that I can once again control this addiction to pornography and compulsive masturbation that has plagued me for 12 years. I do not want to go too long with details of my childhood and adolescence, I will only say that I have always been quite an introverted, insecure and anxious person; I had the misfortune to come across pornography at the age of 11 (I saw photos of naked women, without masturbating, breasts caught my attention) and became addicted when I had my first girlfriend and I instinctively discovered masturbation at 17 (since then doing it sometimes from one to four times a day, or not enduring periods of abstinence greater than a week). Fortunately, a couple of years after starting this addiction, I met a second girl, with whom I share a relationship that is nice and beautiful until now, but despite that, I have not been able to get rid of this vice. A couple of years ago, I decided to take psychological treatment for a few months and I confessed to my partner my problem, she understood me and supported me. Since then I have improved considerably, I stopped masturbating for a longer time (between two weeks and a month) and I enjoyed sex with my partner better. The problem is that I am currently tempted to masturbate, in the first instance because I feel that I have become less patient, it often gives me anxiety about my work (I am a perfectionist) and the family routine.
In addition, I usually have some kinds of headaches in the temples, I tend to move my jaw to crack the bones and relieve pain, like a kind of nervous tic. So I am relapsing again into compulsive masturbation and pornography, I have erotic fetishes (gender bender, transsexual, etc ...). I know that the only one who deceives himself is me, and that I am destroying myself in silence, in addition to putting my relationship and family at risk, but I can't find a way out of this. Sometimes I play sports and that helps a lot, but I feel like the stress of everyday life and these withdrawal symptoms overwhelm me. Thanks and hopefully you can guide me.
In addition, I usually have some kinds of headaches in the temples, I tend to move my jaw to crack the bones and relieve pain, like a kind of nervous tic. So I am relapsing again into compulsive masturbation and pornography, I have erotic fetishes (gender bender, transsexual, etc ...). I know that the only one who deceives himself is me, and that I am destroying myself in silence, in addition to putting my relationship and family at risk, but I can't find a way out of this. Sometimes I play sports and that helps a lot, but I feel like the stress of everyday life and these withdrawal symptoms overwhelm me. Thanks and hopefully you can guide me.
