Removing the link between sexual pleasure and a screen

Even though I've known it on an intellectual level for a while, I never really experienced the link between sexual pleasure and a screen (ipad, phone, pc) as I did yesterday. I had been porn free for a about 4 months, and sexual activity was masturbation using fantasy, or the occasional sex with my wife. I had begun to break the relationship between digital porn and sexual pleasure. In my mind I was cured, or over it. No more porn for me. Porn is for the weak. Or so I thought. Not sure the exact timeline but I began to find some non-porn "porn" - things that I could rationalize as safe but really were porn in my situation. Videos of women lactating. Surely not meant to be sexual, but to me a total turn on. After a few sessions with these, my desire for new stuff had me dig deeper , where dangers lurked with just one more click or tap of the finger.  After I could not find any more new stuff I ventured to Twitter, where I ended up yesterday, after looking at topless women, and gif after gif. The next step would have been a true porn site, but glad I stopped there.

Anyway, what I am trying to describe is the progression, from the seemingly harmless to getting closer to the edge. I'm betting many people can relate to this, whether they realized it or not.

Thanks for reading.

I'm 37 days free...and I agree. Last couple of days, I have been curious on going back in, but just seeing some FB timelines and some of women that are friends with my wife and I are beautiful, and their pictures are very revealing. If I don't stop it there, I know a ton of websites that could help me cave...so I have to cut it off.

I'm 37 days PMO free...difficult, not the first 30 days, they were easy, now I'm starting to walk around half mast when I wake up. That would be awesome if my wife was in the mood...but she's not been in the mood for a few weeks now...makes this journey tough.

In summary, yep, most of us know exactly what you're talking about.

Thanks for sharing Freeme and Rookie. This is really helpful for me to remember about the dangers of complacency which previously have always brought any big (that's over 30 for me!) streaks to an abrupt halt. I am hoping that this time will be different as I now have the interaction and companionship of this group, but I guess that thinking in itself can also risk complacency creeping in (day 23 today). I can really relate to the rapid escalation of just 'peeking' at something - whether it be visual, written or whatever. Coming here daily really helps me keep on top of things. It doesn't necessarily remove any natural and normal desires that ebb and flow within me, but drastically reduces the chances of me choosing PMO as an outlet for them, and me starting on that escalator of doom! Cheers both and take care.