Fighting for happiness

Hi everybody! It?s Ismael from Spain. I hope my English is good enough to make you understand me. I?m 40 years old and I have 4 kids. I got divorced one year ago and I think PA was one of the reasons I did. No sexual relationship almost at all for the last few years. I had a erectile dysfunction and that made things hard.
I feel really bad about it, I think I lost the capability to make a woman feel pleasure. I think I?m too young to lose it.
I started to watch porn when I was amazingly too young, with 3 years old. I was very curious and when my parents were sleeping I like to watch everything in the wardrobes. I saw hard pictures that are still in my head.
I started to masturbate when I was 12 years old and I did it frequently with porn.
I?m just looking for some tools and indications about what can I do to leave all this staff. I know it?s going to be hard but I need to reboot my life, I need to change these wrong habits. I need to be able to express my love properly to the next partner I could have.
Any suggestion?
Thank so much in advance.

Your at the right place doing the right thing. Like most of us it has been a lifetime habit that we are now wanting to change. We are older and wiser so changing is the only option if we want to go on in life and be happy with ourselves. It is the little child we were that started the PMO. We are now older mature men with the mentality that we are not the type of men who look at porn and masturbate. That is something we did as a child that we need to leave behind like a lot of things we did as children.