Lord Byron
Active Member
Preamble
This is not the first time that I have started a journal about my safari to end what I consider to be an addition to masturbation/pornography. As such, I won't offer an introductory biography, yet just a few keys points:
1) I have been masturbating daily and heavily since I was 11/12 (I am now 33).
2) I use pornography and masturbation as a comfort blanket, to avoid dealing with the common travails of life.
3) This addiction - I believe - has affected my overall confidence and approach to life, amongst other reasons.
4) What I though was a happy relationship recently ended, with one of the reasons being by sexual ill-health.
5) Within this addiction's spiderweb, I have also used/paid for sexual services (I consider this to be part of the same issue).
6) PMO cannot be blamed for everything, yet I see breaking my dependance on this anti-social habit as one of many steps I have to take to be a touch happier.
Day 6
This is the sixth day of my latest 'reboot'. So far, it is going well, better than past attempts. I am not feeling any urges to 'peek', or to even masturbate to completion. The habit of 'playing with my willy', like a young boy, still happens though when I am alone and bored, or just simply getting on with the something such as watching a film. We'll see if this decreases as the days progress. Most important, I feel, is the fact that I am not 'edged' once. This has been the key weakness to past attempts. A approach along the lines of mindfulness is really helping me here, so today and the next (small steps, a day-at-a-time) I continue to operate in this mode.
Thanks for reading, to those who have. I wish you all a good day ahead with your own respective recovery attempts.
This is not the first time that I have started a journal about my safari to end what I consider to be an addition to masturbation/pornography. As such, I won't offer an introductory biography, yet just a few keys points:
1) I have been masturbating daily and heavily since I was 11/12 (I am now 33).
2) I use pornography and masturbation as a comfort blanket, to avoid dealing with the common travails of life.
3) This addiction - I believe - has affected my overall confidence and approach to life, amongst other reasons.
4) What I though was a happy relationship recently ended, with one of the reasons being by sexual ill-health.
5) Within this addiction's spiderweb, I have also used/paid for sexual services (I consider this to be part of the same issue).
6) PMO cannot be blamed for everything, yet I see breaking my dependance on this anti-social habit as one of many steps I have to take to be a touch happier.
Day 6
This is the sixth day of my latest 'reboot'. So far, it is going well, better than past attempts. I am not feeling any urges to 'peek', or to even masturbate to completion. The habit of 'playing with my willy', like a young boy, still happens though when I am alone and bored, or just simply getting on with the something such as watching a film. We'll see if this decreases as the days progress. Most important, I feel, is the fact that I am not 'edged' once. This has been the key weakness to past attempts. A approach along the lines of mindfulness is really helping me here, so today and the next (small steps, a day-at-a-time) I continue to operate in this mode.
Thanks for reading, to those who have. I wish you all a good day ahead with your own respective recovery attempts.