Freedom Is My Future

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risingagain2016

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Starting again friends.
I got 7 sevens in my last streak.
I can feel the loss inside my body due to porn use.
I am desperate to leave porn right now.
my energy levels have got so down due to my stupid addiction.
 
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consiousmind27

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Very good bro...joining along with ur marathon..good luck..all is well
 
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risingagain2016

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consiousmind27 said:
Very good bro...joining along with ur marathon..good luck..all is well
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Thank you bro.
all is well.
things are on our side.
now we have to control everything.
 
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risingagain2016

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I was in great despair last night.
I was swinging a lot.
but somehow now I came back into reality again.
back in action.
Now I am gonna enjoy the stability and study addiction on YBOP.
learning addiction and studying about it will help me.
knowledge is power.
 
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risingagain2016

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Now I am doing separately.
P and P sub on other counter and MO on other counter.

I will go P and P sub free.
But I will MO once in a while.

good luck to all.

 
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risingagain2016

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After so many days in darkness , Finally after two relapses in an hour I got my equilibrium back.
I must prolong this enlightenment and brightness as far as I can.
I am looking forward for 1 month, 30 days.
In 30 days you can create new neural pathway in your brain.

I have notice that I have two strong pathway in brain.

1. the pathway of darkness, it is the pathway when I am confused, swinging a lot, going back and forth.watching porn and going back into recovery and then going back to porn. it is complete darkness, when your brain is not functioning well and you have no control over your actions.

2. the pathway of brightness. it is the time , when I am completely in control. and I know what I am doing. it is achievable after equilibrium, after 2 or 3 relapses I am in control. although I am noticing that this time is never lengthy.
I must make my 2nd pathway stronger.




 
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risingagain2016

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Old emotions of frustration and anger are showing up again.
but I am going to sleep and let these emotion pass away.

I am strong and good.
 
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risingagain2016

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Trying to stay positive.
Doing what ever it takes to move forward with positive attitude.
I am going PMO free this streak again.

I have to stay on the same path even after I relapse.
I can't afford now to change paths after every relapses.

I should stick to one plan.

Just managing my life without PMO.

PMO free.
 
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risingagain2016

Guest
Now there will be again a shift in strategy.
again I will go for either 10 rewards straight or 20 rewards total.

Now first I am going for reward No 1 at 5 days.

Streak = 0
Total = 0

if I get 10 rewards straight in a row or if I get total 20 rewards total.
I will get 3 movie tickets and I will go 3 times for meal.

 
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risingagain2016

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Well I started all over again 2 days back.
Since then I am PMO free.
Although my brain was putting a great resistance , but things are going anyways.

Creating new healthy habits of affirmations, walking and meditation.
spending time on yourbrainonporn and rebootnation and some other forums as well.

reboot is going fine till now.

mental focus is good, lot of resistance tough.

working towards attaining perfect balance in life.

take care guys.
love yourself.
 
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risingagain2016

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Going good.
doing what ever it takes to maintain balance.
spending some time on YBOP and rebootnation as well.
 
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risingagain2016

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I fell after 5 days.
I will keep on making new habits in my life to replace porn.
 
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Hablablos

Active Member
Hello there,

also try to find out, what could be the reason for that relapse? Listening your brain, any stressful situation in past couple of days? These thing do a lot.
 
Diesel driver

Diesel driver

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risingagain2016 said:
I fell after 5 days.
I will keep on making new habits in my life to replace porn.
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It is a good idea to improve habits and find new hobbies. It might take some time to find something you are really into but it will happen on its own once you gain some positive momentum.

Cheers!
 
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