ImInControl
Active Member
Hi guys,
34yo. working with IT, so I am in front of the pc many hours a day.
After been peeping here a couple of times, wishing to quit.. but never did I create that profile. I just ended up doing the same ol'..
jumped in to the endless scrolling, looking for that 'perfect scene' or perfect girl to watch.
wow.. if i had spent just 1% of those hours, approaching real life girls out in the city.. I wouldn't have this lonely life!
I kept leaning to the oh so comfortable, quick release... and always ends up regretting that decision. every single time.
-- But NOT anymore!.. I've had it! --
Its a weak behavior.. Letting in to my screen-desires.. The quick fix. I have decided that its done!.. No more!..
for 2015 and beyond.. No more PMO to fake-ass porn.. Its not real. I feel so weak and "used" after releasing the tension.
Its so not worth it.. throwing your manly-energy down the drain.
I want to use that energy and going out.. making mistakes with women, and eventually get some dates instead.
ps. i have had +30/40 partners so far.. but the last 3-4 years its been really low.. mostly 2-3 girls.
so I really want to go out and get social.
I have a feeling that the last years, have not helped me with PMO'ing.. Ive become more anti-social and not going that much out. I think its because of the 'quick-fix' and not caring afterwards .. not having the lust for women. Just made me go straight home from work, and do nothing..
Deep inside, I really want a women to be with, smell her, caress her and all of that. Just like the good old times.
I know I have it in me!.. I just have to quit porn 100% so that wont interfear any more.
I have not PMO'd for 14 days now and whenever I see women on the net, I switch my mind and quickly say "No.. its not worth it.. dont keep watching any of it".. then I go away from the facebook or whatever it is.
I have not even been into a porn site or anything. .. for that, i am kind of proud of my selfe =) ..
I have seen how bad this addiction can damage... I lost my relationship with my fiancee because i'd rather want to watch porn, instead of having sex with her. I was obsessed with skinny blondes,, and she was not skinny and barbie looking.. (she was initially).. but it just chrashed from there.
anyways.. I dont know what more to write. I was kind of anxious to introduce myselfe. Dont know why.. I guess it was because i didnt know where to start with all of this. I just know that PMO is not good for me.. not good for my brain.
I do feel some changes after the 14 days btw!.. Its hard every morning I wake up. I look much more sensually in womens eyes when out shopping.. They look back =)... Ive begun working out more.. so so far, its going really good actually.
I have been out gaming a bit as well. Not that much results though (mostly because I was shocked of how many women, actually likes me!).. so I bailed out before proceeding hehe. But its just stepping stones. I'll get better.. Just gotta keep at it.
alright, its 3am guys.. I hope to come back soon and keep you updated. It would actually be cool to get a quick hello back here.
That would help me even more in my journey to my life of *no more pmo + more women in my life*
over and out guys - thanks for reading this
34yo. working with IT, so I am in front of the pc many hours a day.
After been peeping here a couple of times, wishing to quit.. but never did I create that profile. I just ended up doing the same ol'..
jumped in to the endless scrolling, looking for that 'perfect scene' or perfect girl to watch.
wow.. if i had spent just 1% of those hours, approaching real life girls out in the city.. I wouldn't have this lonely life!
I kept leaning to the oh so comfortable, quick release... and always ends up regretting that decision. every single time.
-- But NOT anymore!.. I've had it! --
Its a weak behavior.. Letting in to my screen-desires.. The quick fix. I have decided that its done!.. No more!..
for 2015 and beyond.. No more PMO to fake-ass porn.. Its not real. I feel so weak and "used" after releasing the tension.
Its so not worth it.. throwing your manly-energy down the drain.
I want to use that energy and going out.. making mistakes with women, and eventually get some dates instead.
ps. i have had +30/40 partners so far.. but the last 3-4 years its been really low.. mostly 2-3 girls.
so I really want to go out and get social.
I have a feeling that the last years, have not helped me with PMO'ing.. Ive become more anti-social and not going that much out. I think its because of the 'quick-fix' and not caring afterwards .. not having the lust for women. Just made me go straight home from work, and do nothing..
Deep inside, I really want a women to be with, smell her, caress her and all of that. Just like the good old times.
I know I have it in me!.. I just have to quit porn 100% so that wont interfear any more.
I have not PMO'd for 14 days now and whenever I see women on the net, I switch my mind and quickly say "No.. its not worth it.. dont keep watching any of it".. then I go away from the facebook or whatever it is.
I have not even been into a porn site or anything. .. for that, i am kind of proud of my selfe =) ..
I have seen how bad this addiction can damage... I lost my relationship with my fiancee because i'd rather want to watch porn, instead of having sex with her. I was obsessed with skinny blondes,, and she was not skinny and barbie looking.. (she was initially).. but it just chrashed from there.
anyways.. I dont know what more to write. I was kind of anxious to introduce myselfe. Dont know why.. I guess it was because i didnt know where to start with all of this. I just know that PMO is not good for me.. not good for my brain.
I do feel some changes after the 14 days btw!.. Its hard every morning I wake up. I look much more sensually in womens eyes when out shopping.. They look back =)... Ive begun working out more.. so so far, its going really good actually.
I have been out gaming a bit as well. Not that much results though (mostly because I was shocked of how many women, actually likes me!).. so I bailed out before proceeding hehe. But its just stepping stones. I'll get better.. Just gotta keep at it.
alright, its 3am guys.. I hope to come back soon and keep you updated. It would actually be cool to get a quick hello back here.
That would help me even more in my journey to my life of *no more pmo + more women in my life*
over and out guys - thanks for reading this