My Shocking Reality

Hi guys, I have been an excessive porn user for last 12 years and my current age is 31(male). I have never been porn free for more than 15  contineous days in last 12 years except once. I believe porn addition made real girls undesirable to me and I never approached anyone. I never thought porn can cause harm to me unless someone saw me watching but recently I realised that it destroyed my whole life. I married a girl few years younger than me since I had no Idea that there is a problem with me , I did found some changes in my erections but no changes in my sexual desire (masturbate with porn) thus I thought it is normal with age. After marriage when I tried to have sex , I simply could not penetrate her . I thought it is because of her hymen which is intact and eventually I will be able to do it but the more I tried the more I realised that I loose erection as soon as I try to insert and it is impossible for me to penetrate her . I decided to consult a doctor for first time sex advice and then I was introduced to this shocking reality tha I have ED. I now feel sorry for my wife and don't know what to do . If I had any idea I am having this problem , I would have never married her but now marriage has happened. I believe my issue is PIED .
The shocking fact is that I have memories of having better satisfaction masturbating to porn than I felt when I ejaculated with her ( not inside). I have become less sensitive to human touch than porn . I don't know what to do and I found this website . I hope someone could suggest me how can I recover and provide me some motivation . I can't see any hope now. :-[

First off, lay off the porn no matter how hard it is. Explain your addiction to your significant other and continue having sex with her. Eventually the sex will become better.

Definitely sounds like PIED to me.

I agree with Unbreakable's advice. Communicate this to your spouse. It will be hard but at least she will know it is not her.

Start your porn recovery now! Today. I would also recommend no masturbation during your recovery. The only sexual pleasure you should get, is from your wife. That will make her the only outlet for your sexual energy.

Be warned that it may take many months to recover completely. Stick with it.

Lots of great resources on this site to educate you.