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Leon

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Re: Yes I Can!
« Reply #525 on: August 02, 2017, 01:12:52 PM »
Sure miss the counter app.

If you think it helps. Put it back on...

Or what I did for a while was have it only on my page 1 of my journal, but whatever works.

Blessings.
I am a man under grace not law.

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« Reply #526 on: August 02, 2017, 08:22:02 PM »
Bob!  Sure do miss your posts!  You can do this!

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« Reply #527 on: August 05, 2017, 10:13:24 AM »
Thanks Gracie, I appreciate your thoughts.

Aug 2, 2017 I begin again.

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« Reply #528 on: August 05, 2017, 10:20:57 AM »
Saturday morning and I have a long trip ahead of me. It doesn't help that the reason is the personal health of a loved one. The stress plays havoc on my obsession. 

Being on the road has always presented triggers. Driving by places that I shouldn't go. Thinking of things that take me away from my goal of strength in abstinence, being at peace with myself, and the bond and relationship with my wife. I have so much to accomplish and this behavior gets in the way.

At least I will not be alone with my travels. My wife will be going with me so that takes the "opportunities" away. I inwardly longed to be by myself but that is the kiss of death. It will set my journey back further than the three days of abstinence.

Lots on my mind and this provided a place to vent.

Peace

Aug 2, 2017 I begin again.

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« Reply #529 on: August 12, 2017, 01:28:55 PM »
Afternoon folks,

I am currently sitting at 10 days on a return journey to the bright side. I have been here before.

It was a challenge then. It is a challenge now. But, I am writing to profess this road can be traveled more than once. If you don't make it, you begin again. You  continue to work at it until you arrive.

Multiple attempts are not desired. Once and done would be great. However, for whatever reason, I was not able to stay away from the pull of porn. I suspect the reasons are many but that's irrelevant. It doesn't matter how many times one makes this journey; just that you continue until the goal is accomplished.

For folks starting out, realize it can be a challenge. We are all human. We screw up. We can fail in obtaining our desired goals. But, if you persist, you can beat this demon. Never give up. Begin again and learn what caused the detour. Investigate the reasons you didn't make it. Work to correct the pitfalls.

Don't beat yourself up. Learn from your mistakes. Just get back on the horse.

Peace
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« Reply #530 on: August 13, 2017, 05:59:02 PM »
Good evening folks,

This is a post that I made quite a while ago. I had to search back through my Journal to find it again. I wanted to revisit it as I felt like it provided some understanding on my reasons for working towards of life free of pmo.

Reasons to take on a PMO, MO free life
  • Brings me closer to my wife.
  • Stay in the moment (no need to sneaking away).
  • Sex is more intense.
  • Enjoy my time making love, (no quick, "I have to O").
  • ‚ÄúSure you can use my computer", (No hidden stash).
  • All people deserve respect; Porn is not victim-less.
  • Free porn is not free. No need to line the pockets of people who exploit others.
  • More time available, ("where did the time go"?)
  • Eliminate DE and PIED issues.
  • Waking up with an intense hard on.
  • Pleasant sexual response around attractive females.
  • Increase sense of confidence.
  • Perception that I am more desirable to others.
  • I am in control.
Positive thoughts to all who are working through this process.

Peace
Aug 2, 2017 I begin again.

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Re: Yes I Can!
« Reply #531 on: August 14, 2017, 03:13:17 PM »
Wow! Those are all good reasons, brother- and inspiring, too!

I am a man under grace not law.

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« Reply #532 on: August 16, 2017, 07:12:58 PM »
Hey folks,

Last weekend, I had a long road trip that would typically been an extreme  challenge. The isolation, places along the road that "draw me in" and time to sit and fantasize, they all contribute to a potential binge. However, that didn't happen. Something I read on RN "clicked" and allowed me to think of things in a different way. Not sure I understand it. I tried to find it again but couldn't. No matter. I traveled for 600 miles and did so without incident.

I started out and I wasn't sure it would be possible.

So...the goal isn't 30, 90, or 120 days free. It is a new lifestyle.

Peace
Aug 2, 2017 I begin again.