ruuddejong
Active Member
Hello,
I am 32, married for 4 years, have a son around 1 year old. Our sex life has been terrible in the last 2-3 years due to my addiction. She has no idea and she thinks I do not find her attractive. She is actually 10/10, while I am at best 7/10. Everyone is staring at her in street, in malls etc, but because of my addiction, I never initiate sex, if she eventually does it, it takes me a while get hard and then I can actually keep it and we can both cum, so while I can maintain erection, I cannot get hard by hugging her or kissing her etc.
I have been using porn since teenager years, I realized that it is an addiction about 2-3 years ago, I had period where I didn't use it at all for 2 months and things got considerably better but then I got back to it somehow. Since then max 2-3 weeks I can go. I have read many posts on this website, finally decided to join and start my own thread.
Since there is no one else in the world, that knows about my addiction, I need at least some thread to keep myself accountable.
So this is the attempt, and this is day 1.
I am 32, married for 4 years, have a son around 1 year old. Our sex life has been terrible in the last 2-3 years due to my addiction. She has no idea and she thinks I do not find her attractive. She is actually 10/10, while I am at best 7/10. Everyone is staring at her in street, in malls etc, but because of my addiction, I never initiate sex, if she eventually does it, it takes me a while get hard and then I can actually keep it and we can both cum, so while I can maintain erection, I cannot get hard by hugging her or kissing her etc.
I have been using porn since teenager years, I realized that it is an addiction about 2-3 years ago, I had period where I didn't use it at all for 2 months and things got considerably better but then I got back to it somehow. Since then max 2-3 weeks I can go. I have read many posts on this website, finally decided to join and start my own thread.
Since there is no one else in the world, that knows about my addiction, I need at least some thread to keep myself accountable.
So this is the attempt, and this is day 1.