Getting in touch with intimacy all over again.

First of all, thank you for making this site and spreading the knowledge! I don't think I ever would have recognized that porn consumption was the villain.

So this is a first real step. I've tried quitting watching porn before but never succeeded so here I am. I'm determined to do this, to retake control and rid myself of the problems a lifetime of porn consumption has created for me.

My name is Torgeir Hassel, born in 87 in Norway. Grew up in Sweden with my mom.

I live by myself 50% and taking care of my daughter 50% of the time so needless to say, I have alot alone time when L's at her moms. She's 5 and a wonderful human, and she deserves a father with less anxiety and stress. I've tried to recognize my triggers and it's a lot harder than I thought. Well I guess boredom is a big one. And the easy accessibility of the internet via my handset. This goes hand in hand with another addiction of mine. Use of smartphone and social media. So as a first action, I will start leaving my phone in my jacket and start using my watch as an alarm clock. It's not a smart watch don't worry .

That's all for tonight. And thanks. I hope this is the beginning of something great

Hey again! So I haven't watched any porn since 17/2. I've had care over the little one so I haven't really had time over for anything else than parenting. The next two days is mommy days though so, wish me luck! I need it.

As I do with everything I say so it write, I feel the need to explain myself. The title of this journal is "getting in touch with intimacy". What I mean is, when I'm with someone nowadays I don't feel it. The only thing I can think of is to perform and to be good enough and please her so I forget everything else. It becomes a job for me and includes zero intimacy. I guess that's the thought behind it.

Anyway, it feels good writing about it, and reading you guys stories is helpful and I feel like I'm not alone in this.

Thanks. See you later.

I forgot. Not being able to get an erection since the first girl after my sexual debut is a big reason. Man this is a long story when I think about it. I'm going to need a couple of evenings for this. Still, better than fapping though right!..