Sickandtired
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So, I have finally had enough of this prison type life in my head. My story actually starts at a young age. I stumbled upon my dad's collection around 13 years old. I have had some sort of P imagery in my life since that time. After many years and 1 failed marriage I began to see how negatively it was affecting my life but I really had no willpower to stop. There were several times where I could have had some fun with some very good looking women, but I lacked the confidence and the one that I did have the opportunity with, I was unable to perform. I found myself waiting for others to leave so I could enter my irrational non reality and relieve the pain.
Eventually I met this awesome amazing woman who accepted me for me and slowly stole my heart. I can't even begin to explain the hurt and disgust in myself for not being able to be with her the way I should. We have been together for 8 year now and got married in 2014. Recently my mom passed away and I lost my pup of 13 years around the same time. We have had our troubles recently especially but we are working through them and getting stronger every day. At the point of almost losing her I decided I was completely done with this prison.
Currently about to start day 8 and I have more energy than I have had in a long time. Right now I am on the computer writing this instead of watching trash that only poisons the mind and heart.. So far I have done good at keeping away from it and I hope to stay that way in order to fully reboot and be the husband that my wife deserves. I went so far today as to round up all the DVD's that were even close to that kind of trash put them in a bucket and lit off an entire strip of firecrackers! Needless to say, they are gone! Goodbye and good riddance. I am praying and hoping that I make it to the 30 day mark for a total reboot. I wish you all the best of luck, and I am here for those that would like to talk. Stay strong everyone and the REBOOT IS TOTALLY WORTH IT!
Eventually I met this awesome amazing woman who accepted me for me and slowly stole my heart. I can't even begin to explain the hurt and disgust in myself for not being able to be with her the way I should. We have been together for 8 year now and got married in 2014. Recently my mom passed away and I lost my pup of 13 years around the same time. We have had our troubles recently especially but we are working through them and getting stronger every day. At the point of almost losing her I decided I was completely done with this prison.
Currently about to start day 8 and I have more energy than I have had in a long time. Right now I am on the computer writing this instead of watching trash that only poisons the mind and heart.. So far I have done good at keeping away from it and I hope to stay that way in order to fully reboot and be the husband that my wife deserves. I went so far today as to round up all the DVD's that were even close to that kind of trash put them in a bucket and lit off an entire strip of firecrackers! Needless to say, they are gone! Goodbye and good riddance. I am praying and hoping that I make it to the 30 day mark for a total reboot. I wish you all the best of luck, and I am here for those that would like to talk. Stay strong everyone and the REBOOT IS TOTALLY WORTH IT!