Start of my journey

Hey all,

I finally decided to do some research and realised I suffer from PIED...

Little background about me. I'm 37 and overweight. I started watching porn from about 14 it was with magazines, videos(VHS) then to online images and to videos online. Over the years its been on and off. Off generally when I have been in a relationship and back on when im out of a relationship. In my last relationship I didnt really feel a desire to be sexual its was only now and then. But overall I always found it very hard for a partner make orgasm. I'd find it so much easier masturbating myself. Almost felt like the ?old boy? was not sensitive to touch or anything.

Over the past few months I found myself turning to online porn as a ?fix? and this would be several times a day. This surely isn?t healthy and its now time I took some action.

Currently 5 days into the process of no porn and no masturbation. Not really feeling the urge but the old boy is just shrivelled up and in a very sorry state, hoping this will change. I find myself waking up to semi hard erections but that?s about it. Currently I meditate 5mins in the morning, hit the gym 3-5 times a week and go for evening walks.

The aim is for the ?old boy? to have rock hard erections, for it to become sensitive again and have a real sex drive that I previously used to have.

Will the 'old boy' remain in the sorry shrivelled forever? I have no intention to get back to any sort of porn. I think like alot of us I just want this process to be over as soon as possible and get back to how it should be.

Quick update. First week over and have to be fair its not as bad as I thought it would be.

No PMO or MO neither have there been any urges. What I have noticed is that in the mornings the 'old boy' is erect (I'd as aroud 70%).

What does everyone think about engaging in sexual intercourse this early on in the reboot process? Or is it best to stay awya from it all for at least 90 odd days?

On the 10th day now.

No morning wood. However I really feel the urge to PMO/MO today, I'm trying so hard to resist. I feel if i give in now it will be a temp fix and I shall end up undoing the work I have put in so far.

How does sex effect the reboot process? Or should I stay away from it?

11 days in.

Yesterday was tough. There were several times throughout the day where I just wanted to O. I didn feel the need to watch porn or anything. However I did get myself hard a few times and the stop myself.

Today so far hasnt been bad at all no temptations at all. Just concentration on everything else but porn. Want to be at a place where I feel rewired and cured of all this.

seems your doing good man, keep strong!

Toph, thank you for the kind words.

By all means it is not easy and not a walk in the park. I am trying to keep strong and focus on the end goal. The light must be at the end of the tunnel from reading all these success stories.

14 days no PMO or MO

I am proud of it but yet there is no doubt about it its not been an easy ride. I still feel its still early days and taking a day at a time hoping the end result with be worth it.

All I will say is take a day at a time and set yourself small goals which eventually become the bigger goal. Lets keep going and beat this habit! We dont need it!

Heya Woody, thanks for posting. Congrats on 14 days without PMO or MO. That's a big accomplishment. Giving up PMO has always been easier for me than giving up MO. I admire your determination.

Awesome job Woody!  You are a few days ahead of me, and your progress is inspiring.  Please keep on fighting, as I'm sure I'm not alone in saying that.

Day 18 - fighting strong.

The old boy does look a very sorry state but I'm hoping with the rewiring that will get all fixed up.  Recently I've had issues with my computer so have been fixing them which has kept me busy. Theres been no serious urges where I have felt I'm going to give in. I'm sure there are tough times ahead but lets fight one day at a time and as the good old saying goes Rome was not built in a day...

22 days in - cant believe its been just over 3 weeks and I've stayed away from PMO and MO.

I plan on carrying on. Not feeling major improvements down there but I'm hopeful it will all pay off. Get the occasional erections in the morning but only 70 odd per cent. Weekend was pretty easy as I spent it with my folks and they kept me occupied. Just wished I saw some imporvements...

yeah dude, I'm 46 days in and haven't seen tons of improvements down there. Maybe it's because my diet and sleep aren't on point... But people say this process works and there really isn't any reason not to do this, so here I am...