Scared

WAS PERSEUS GAY?
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I am so scared.

It wasn't a conscious deal but I grew up fearing AIDS.  I came out in the mid-80's and never knew anal sex to be safe.  I feared it and hated the use of condoms.

I began to transfer my drive for anything anal to porn in order to avoid unsafe sex.  For close to 30 years, the vast majority of sex that I have had has been anal-free.

I remember processing it in my 20's and reconciling my satisfaction through porn and a very sexually active life (bookstores, bath houses, sex clubs, etc).  I used to pride myself on the fact that I never had a problem getting an erection or controlling my orgasm.

I don't really remember when PIED started but, now that I think about it, it was right around the time streaming porn became available.

So it was about a month ago that I saw Gabe on Chelsea and found this site.  I have been educating myself and engaging with members and I know what I have to do.

Today is the day.

For anyone that might have come here to answer the question:  "was Perseus gay?",  I don't know but he was a dragon slayer and if you have ever seen the movie "Clash of the Titans" with Harry Hamlin, you should know why I ask.

I always had a problem. But when high speed hit life basically ended for me. I transformed into a scared neurotic creep. I became all the things that people had taunted me about and belittled me with for years. Maybe I did it to seek their approval. Here look I am what you say I am. I grew up in the same period as you. Once of my uncles died of aids, even before Freddie mercury did. It defientslly colored my thinking when I came to safe sex.