I lost a friend because I am an idiot.

Have you ever followed your other heads emotions instead of your brain & it caused negative consequences?

Well Today it did for me...and it's only 9am.. wow.

Sex is always on my mind. I haven't gotten any for 6 months (beg of jan) & plus my addiction to porn and sometimes it just feels overwhelming.
I had a dream about sex and woke up real horny I got on my phone and I went on Snapchat to try to distract myself. I seen a picture of an old friend who I always thought was hot. She posted a selfie. I sent a comment (an emoji display naughty things) without even thinking. I instantly regretted it. It was like just so fastI couldn't believe I did it. It was a mix between horniness * tiredness. I was still in my bed barely awake. Then....

The reply message.

Heart sinked as I read.. "please don't send those inappropriate messages I have a boyfriend."

I instantly felt... SHAME, GUILT, WEAKNESS, ANGER & RAGE AT MYSELF FOR BEING SO STUPID.

Again my dumb ass chose to write back and act like I didn't know what she was talking about & that my snapchat probably got hacked.. I then went on to say (for some dumb ass reason) that trust me I don't want you and don't write back.

She replies like any normal person would and says don't get attitude with me if that's true then that's not my problem.

Like the fucking idiot I am I reply not my problem either unfollow then

,.. yeah I know...

She then ... again as any normal person would.. she blocked me.

I just lost a friendship ( we never really talked, in years but still she was my friend you know.) over my lack of willpower and stupidity.

I have never felt so beta.

I don't want to be that "weirdo"

I don't want to get famous one day and have all the girls I got at put me on blast lol

I am good looking (id say7/10 haha)

I work out

I know my self worth

I just don't have self control over my emotions thoughts and words/actions.

HAS ANY ELSE EVER HAD A NEGATIVE CONSEQUENCE DUE TO THEIR THINKING WITH THEIR DICK?

She didn't act all that normal, and it's not your fault, really. You didn't insult her or something of the sort.

Probably she's at fault too, if she doesn't want anyone to comment on her photos, she could not post any.

Chill man, chicks act like crazy sometimes, and they make it look like it's all your fault.

looks like you went out of your comfort zone. that is fucking great and awesome. if you dont feel awkward AS FUCK, if you dont get weird sometimes if you dont get out of your comfort zone sometimes, you are not growing. forget about feeling all good, well and justified. bring the uncomfort into your life and it will help you big time. sometimes i do dumb shit online just because its uncomfortable. online is easiest one, go for offline embarrassment too, that is hard as fuck!

I don't want to get famous one day and have all the girls I got at put me on blast lol

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look at all the famous people and all the shit talked about them. they all got blasted for something. you can not be possibly famous without some stupid shit being attached to you. its all about going way out of your comfort zone, especially if you want to be famous or successful.

Yeah, your story made me cringe a bit... but, that you know what is wrong with your actions is huge.  I wish more guys on here would look at a situation like this as "losing a friend" as not as "crazy woman doesn't want me acting pervy even though she started it".  You acted wrongly, but your heart is in the right place... at least, now that you've had time to reflect.

Porn brain skips the thinking... urge to action.  After that, you did have a chance to think about it.  This is definitely a great example of why rebooting is so important for us.

Apologies are critical for our social structures for so many reasons, and both of you would be helped by it.  Yeah, you may be blocked, but an opportunity may come up.  Even if the friendship doesn't rekindle, being honest that you were in a bad place when you sent those messages can be a big deal.  Of course don't tell her that you had weird sex dreams, were crazy horny and trying to quit porn, but you can say that you're in a rough place emotionally in a way that she can relate to. 

safa61947 said:

She didn't act all that normal, and it's not your fault, really. You didn't insult her or something of the sort.

Probably she's at fault too, if she doesn't want anyone to comment on her photos, she could not post any.

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This is silly.  Not seeing the picture I don't know if it was something appropriate for someone saying she is in a relationship and doesn't want advances, but victim blaming for sexual abuse is not acceptable.  Girls aren't "asking for it" by being attractive.  Being lewd is in itself an insult... calling a girl "fuckable" is an insult. 

You seem like a good guy.  We all struggle with treating people well, and we all have regrettable moments.  Again, I think it is an excellent sign of great character that you made this post to share this story with us.