I never knew about masturbation until I was 15 years old although I knew about porn few years earlier but had no real access to it. I started masturbating like 2 times a week at 15 without porn. At 16 I got limited access to internet porn (mainly pictures) and my masturbating increased to like 4 times a week. When I was 17 I had full access to internet porn and started watching all sort of porn online. My favorite being lesbian porn because I love breast and an orgy with so many breast around would make my day. I loved watching straight porn too but I always skip the end part of ejaculation because I kind of hate watching men ejaculate. I'm definitely not gay. Because I was getting the satisfaction I needed, I had no real reason for a girlfriend. However, my problem started when I was 19 when a friend of mine who didn't know I was a virgin took me to a hooker. I could only get a mild erection after she gave me a handjob and although I could penetrate her, I couldn't ejaculate because I got soft inside her. I was worried but didn't tell my friend what happened. I got back home and viewed porn and I got a FULL erection instantly and I ejaculated in no time. I was very worried so about 2 weeks later I went back to get another hooker just to try out again. It was tragic. After I couldn't get hard I was physical shaking, I was nervous to death but succeeded in getting a mild erection. After failure of penetration I left. I tried again six months later and same thing happened. I freaked out but I told myself that if I got a girlfriend I wouldn't have a problem. That it happened because it was a hooker. So I felt comfortable masturbating and watching internet porn of all sorts. I have been masturbating at least once a day. Sometimes 3 times daily since then. I am now 22 and I have a girlfriend. We tried having sex few days back and I couldn't get hard enough to penetrate. So we just sat back and talked after a while I got hard (almost fully) and penetrated her but got soft inside her. She came but I couldn't. She's very understanding but I'm losing my mind. I wake up most times in the morning with erection and get erection during foreplay but loose it during wearing a condom. I am a mild smoker and drinker but I have increased a little but as I see it as a way of taking my mind of my problem. I believe internet porn and masturbation have ruined my sex life so I decided to stop both immediately. It has been 3 days now I stopped. My girlfriend told me she is coming back into town on Thursday and she will come see me then. I know she will want sex but that will make it just 5 days since I stopped masturbating. I'm scared, worried and freaked out. Someone should please help before I go completely crazy. My friends keep telling me about their sexual adventures and I'm tired of cooking up lies to tell them. Something they seem to do effortlessly, I on the other hand just can't.