I remember before porn became so easy to access I used to collect images of female celebrities and stick them maticulously in a scrap back. I would cut them out of news papers and magazines. I have OCD to a degree and I think I did this to forfil that part of my character as well as use the pictures for wank material. Anyhow i was wondering whether OCD is a flaw of many porn addicts, because OCD is almost an addiction in itself, so maybe it made me more susceptible to becoming an addict. Then maybe is was only a matter of time before I escalated to hard core porn. I remember being completely repulsed by porn as a teenager at school so the celebrity thing was maybe a gateway to porn. I wonder if the Internet hadn't made porn basically free and instantly accessible whether I would be porn addict. I think probably not, because I was always socially awkward and very shy so I definitely wouldn,t have bought any mags I would have been too scared and feared what people think. It strange because I never really viewed myself as a pervert, when I was growing up it was the guys that went into the shops to buy the mags were perverts. Those that when to the adult section of the video rental store. Now it's so easy to obtain porn I must be an awesome pervert, without it I would have been just a pervert waiting to happen. It,s disgusting to think I have become everything I thought I wasn't, a liar a cheat a pervert, I can't blame the addiction for all of that surely, I must have some deep character flaw in me somewhere.