Porn is not an Option

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saradsam

Member
20/05/2019

- I feel the pressure build up.
- Its fun at times but also depressing , looking for an outlet
- I feel very energized in the morning. No sense of tiredness
- I still have to overcome cutting short the fantasizing.That leads ...
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saradsam

Member
23/5

- Feeling very horny today
- I have noticed that as the sexual energy rises, I tend to fantasise
About women. Even women on the road, the ones I like.
- I know it?s a trigger and I just have to let it pass.
- also feel anxiety about nothing in particular
 
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saradsam

Member
25/05
- Just feel very horny nowadays, with all this sexual energy pent up.
- Just women all types turn me on
- I have realised that the fantasising has gone up
Due to this energy.
- I am starting to feel that there is a correlation between sexual
Addiction and porn
 
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saradsam

Member
27/05
- Feel energised in the morning. not lethargic.
- I nip the fantasising when it pops up
- I have started to understand that we are addicted to a drug
Just like any heroin addict.
- The drug is dopamine.
 
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saradsam

Member
4/6/19
- The mind feels clear. There is no inherent Tiredness in the morning.
- I still feel sluggish at times.
- Time has opened up
 
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saradsam

Member
9/6/18
- got a hard on today morning and it stayed for a while
- one thing I have realised that porn was a band aid
To face reality
- it was basically to suppress what you were truly feel
  so rebooting basically requires you to find solutions.
- a porn addict is no different to a heroin addict.
-The only difference being the drug is produced by the body
And more potent and free!!

Porn is not an option
 
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J01

Guest
Keep going-looks like you are gaining a lot of insights as you progress.  It is difficult but worth it!
 
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saradsam

Member
11/6
- Feeling very horny looking around.
- There is no outlet like previously
- it causes frustration & depression
Keep going
 
workinprogressUK

workinprogressUK

Well-Known Member
We have good days and bad days. You're making great progress and it reads like you typically have great energy. Maybe it's just a bad day? Hope so!
 
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saradsam

Member
18/6
- Felt an overwhelming energy yesterday so masturbated.
- Just imagined, closed my eyes and came. Was so full.
- There was no porn.
- Felt weakness after doing it. Just the sheer difference
In energy before and after
- Going to avoid m going forward.
 
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saradsam

Member
21/6
- Had the realisation that it?s not just porn that has to stop but also masturbation
- I still very sexual looking at women on the street. I feel like a hunter sometimes.
- Real women are turning me on like anything.

Porn is not an option
 
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saradsam

Member
24/6
- Feeling nothing
- There is no real sense of purpose
- In the morning my urges are the strongest
- Feel weakest in the morning and be aware of the
Urges then.

Porn is not an option
 
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saradsam

Member
27/6
- Feeling very sluggish and tired.
- Have a sense of meaningless to what I?m doing.
- Just feel it?s all futile.
- Real women turn me very horny and there are strong
Urges
- I have realised that masturbation takes you a step back.
- Fantasy is the same as porn.

Keep going
 
workinprogressUK

workinprogressUK

Well-Known Member
Your experiences and emotions are very similar to those of other people who have been here and eventually enjoyed success. Stay patient and stick to the things you know that reduce your triggers. I totally agree with you that M is a backward step towards P, and that fantasy is P in your head. So on the basis that....

"if you stand on a slippery slope for long enough, you're going to slip"​

I've found that recovery is easier for me when I refuse to fantasise. You're doing really well, though, and your emotions and feelings are absolutely typical of people here, so just hold tight and thing will eventually improve.
 
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saradsam

Member
23/7/19
- Feel very sluggish. I get horny sometimes
-  No real sense of purpose just wobbling through

Keep going. Porn is not an option
 
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