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tallguy13
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Here?s my story...
I First started watching porn when I was roughly 10 years old, I am 23 now. My dad had a satellite tv that included all channels including the adult one. I found this out as I was watching tv one day. I was very intrigued as I saw breasts for the first time.
Then as time went on and internet became a thing I was able to search for things on my iPod in my room alone. At first it was just browsing, then it turned into masturbation as I witnessed people do on on the websites.
Then came OMEGLE. This website single handedly ruined my life. For those who are unaware Omegle is a website where you webcam strangers. Though not stated in there terms of agreements they don?t advertise against webcaming naked. I would spend multiple hours a night on my laptop on Omegle showing myself to people and treating girls like shit (I was 12-16). Girls would strip for points and often request for me to tell them what to do... As I got older and I started to feel creepy watching random people do this and doing it myself. I then went to internet porn mainly to calm my anxiety. I have watched way too many hours of it and often find myself unamused with what i find. I always question why do I do this why do I come back it?s boring. Then without fail I watch it again, feel shitty and repeat. I have tried to quit multiple times and failed. I have talked to a councillor and they told me just to not be alone. So long story short they haven?t done much. I?m hoping that this forum can help me achieve my goal of never watching porn again.
I am living with a wonderful women who I plan to marry in the near future. She knows I have watched porn and knows that it has become a beast in my life. However, she thinks that I?m no longer struggling. I?m too ashamed to tell her I am. I want her to marry a man who is free from this demon and I want to be free myself.
Luckily I haven?t experienced any type of ED that I know of. However, I find that whenever I?m bored I am masturbating to porn... it makes me want to cry.
I want a life free if porn, I?m attempting a reboot. However, I feel that without support I won?t have much success... I?m breaking a habit that is 10 years old.
I First started watching porn when I was roughly 10 years old, I am 23 now. My dad had a satellite tv that included all channels including the adult one. I found this out as I was watching tv one day. I was very intrigued as I saw breasts for the first time.
Then as time went on and internet became a thing I was able to search for things on my iPod in my room alone. At first it was just browsing, then it turned into masturbation as I witnessed people do on on the websites.
Then came OMEGLE. This website single handedly ruined my life. For those who are unaware Omegle is a website where you webcam strangers. Though not stated in there terms of agreements they don?t advertise against webcaming naked. I would spend multiple hours a night on my laptop on Omegle showing myself to people and treating girls like shit (I was 12-16). Girls would strip for points and often request for me to tell them what to do... As I got older and I started to feel creepy watching random people do this and doing it myself. I then went to internet porn mainly to calm my anxiety. I have watched way too many hours of it and often find myself unamused with what i find. I always question why do I do this why do I come back it?s boring. Then without fail I watch it again, feel shitty and repeat. I have tried to quit multiple times and failed. I have talked to a councillor and they told me just to not be alone. So long story short they haven?t done much. I?m hoping that this forum can help me achieve my goal of never watching porn again.
I am living with a wonderful women who I plan to marry in the near future. She knows I have watched porn and knows that it has become a beast in my life. However, she thinks that I?m no longer struggling. I?m too ashamed to tell her I am. I want her to marry a man who is free from this demon and I want to be free myself.
Luckily I haven?t experienced any type of ED that I know of. However, I find that whenever I?m bored I am masturbating to porn... it makes me want to cry.
I want a life free if porn, I?m attempting a reboot. However, I feel that without support I won?t have much success... I?m breaking a habit that is 10 years old.