Frustrated like crazy

Not even counting but I'm like 3 almost 4 weeks sober NO PMO. I'm getting really annoyed that I have social anxiety and I'm very shy around girls and guys so I can't even connect to make friends. Not even with friends I had since high school. I'm 25 now. I'm not having any urge to relapse at all because I'm dedicated to this but still. I'm so pissed off I cant even smile or laugh or be funny around people. My dick is dead. I'm quiet. Been working out and eating better but I also get lazy and lose motivation to workout hard. I'm so annoyed man. Fucking hate my life I literally don't have any friends I feel like such a loser not being able to be in sync with people how I used to be.

Hey,

First things first, congratulations on being about a month off of PMO! I don't know how long you've been using but anyways it's something that many have difficulties achieving. I think before you've been writing a lot about anxiety and not feeling comfortable with yourself, do you have someone that you can talk to about that? I don't know where it stems from but if it genuinly bothers you try to reach out to someone, professional or just a friend / family member. Quiting porn isn't some magical solution to becoming the best version of yourself, it's just cutting out some rotten part that's left its marks. Many people here find out over time that porn was perhaps a way of coping with things, or avoiding certain feelings and situations. I'd advice to dig a bit deeper into these things and read some material regarding addictions and personality changes. In the end, the only person that can affect change is you. Friends, family, therapists, spiritual leaders might point you towards life improvements, but the work has to be done by yourself.

I wish you all the best of luck man, seems like you're in a tough place. Maybe it's easier to start a journal where you can keep your posts together, I find it helpful to every now and then just go through all of my ramblings and see what I was thinking or how I was dealing with things.

Hey great job man. It is also good that you posted about your feelings. You are on the RIGHT PATH. This is really uncomfortable now but in the future it will pay off. It's hard but man is it badass that you are willing to push through this to get the life you want

Thanks guys for responding. I've been watching since maybe 8th grade. 12 years ago maybe. But the past 5 was the worst for me. Gradually started watching weirder and weirder stuff and just embarrassing for someone to find out. Anyway yeah I get porn isn't the magically solution but I do believe it took over my life like crazy. Nothing else in very done besides weed made me this way. Weed enhanced my porn addiction but I still had a porn problem after quitting weed. Its frustrating when you have your pot heads and alcoholics that have these problems right but they can still go out and make friends and talk. I cant do that sober? Fuck this is just crazy. I feel alone everywhere I go. But anyways.

That's fine brother! Know that you're on the right path. We just have to keep doing the best we can and before we know it, we will soon reap the fruits of our labor and sacrifices. There's no way but up!

I think the simple fact that you're being able to see clearly your situation and express yourself here is commendable. You are here, so you are one of those who will definitely win. I know the road is difficult, but the major outcomes come later, that's why I will not give up and I wish you neither so. We have a common enemy, let's fight. I send you my best wishes for your reboot.
Regards from Brazil.