Enough is Enough

Dr.jones

New Member
Not sure I?m doing this right, but whatever...

I?m a classic example of circumstance perverting innocence. That is to say, my first encounter with naked women on the internet happened when I was 8. It was a complete accident. My friend and I were searching up Gogo?s Crazy Bones in our elementary school?s computer lab and inadvertently accessed pictures of strippers and gogo dancers. I had no idea what these things were at the time and I hadn?t reached puberty yet, so I thought nothing of it...
Fast forward two years and I am now 10. I?m starting to look at girls differently, and one night, while I?m researching a project I remember those pictures from two years ago...
I think we?ve all experienced various versions of this story and know that pictures became videos, and videos became increasingly extreme as time went on.

I am 16 now, and I have already been watching porn for almost 7 years of my life. That?s pretty fucked up. However, I take full responsibility for my addiction. I made a choice to search for strippers six years ago, and I made a choice to keep searching for more extreme adult content. But it needs to stop.
A year ago a friend of mine took his own life and I fell into a bad place. I, for the first time, started neglecting school work and friends, to masturbate multiple times a day. I became not only addicted to porn, but a chronic-masturbator.
I might as well mention this now, because I?ll probably talk about this a lot: I am a high level athlete. My addictions are now jeopardizing my ability to obtain scholarships because I have neglected my training.

I?m going to end it here. Hopefully this wasn?t too much doom and gloom. I?m happy to answer questions, and if you have any advice - posting on the forum, abstinence, criticism - I?m more than willing to listen.
 

W4tchmak3r

Member
Hey Jonsey,

It sounds like you?ve got a lot on your plate man. I would really recommend talking to someone about everything that?s going on for you. Specifically about how things in your life are starting to suffer, not just as a result of porn.

Family and friends help, but honestly mate a counsellor was best for me. I know that can be a hard to make that step, but reaching for any kind of help is a start, even on here.

I know addiction is the whole theme of this site, but honestly found it?s really easy to fall down the rabbit hole. Habits can become overwhelming, and they can feel like you?re dependant on them, but in the end they?re just bad habits and you can kick them whenever you need.

If you?re interested in doing some more research, I?d recommend this article:
https://www.artofmanliness.com/articles/how-to-quit-porn/

I felt like it was pretty holistic and it has some great stuff about positive mindsets which I think are super important and will be great for you. It does have some stuff about religion in there, but focus on the stuff aside from that (if you?re not religious), otherwise it can still be helpful if you unpack it in a constructive way.

Put yourself first and make sure you?ve got a support network, not just for the whole porn thing but also just for yourself man. That?s so important for everyone.

Best of luck making positive change and stay healthy dude.
 

Jujubee2

New Member
Keep your head up and refocus kid... remind yourself that porn is stopping you from fulfilling dreams .. and what you don?t want on top of that dream stopper is the inability to have sex with someone you love or are even attracted to. Which for me has been the case these past couple months :/ don?t let ppl and an industry stop you from a great quality of life
 
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