Dominator76
Member
Hello all!
I?m 39 years old but I only have about two months until I turn 40 so I figure it?s just as fine to start over here, right away, in the "40 and up" section.
I live in a small country in Europe and English is not my language so people reading this should be warned about grammatical and spelling errors
I also want to mention that I was over at YBR journaling since I was 36 under the namne "MarstonS". So yeah, that means I have been battling this PMO addiction for more then 3 years now. I have been addicted for longer than that ofcourse, probably since I got internet 2004, but only been avare of this whole PIED concept since late 2012.
My main issues right now, in life are:
Anxiety. (Panic attacks, in general but perhaps the biggest beeing social anxiety. Comes and goes in strenght)
Depression. (not to severe at times but it comes and goes)
OCD and ADD. (theese are not THAT big of an issue any more)
Low self esteam. (getting better as the years adds up and I work with my self)
Low libido. ( I do not suffer from ED anymore but my libido is not where I want it to be. Could, ofcourse be the issues above that drives it down)
I?m starting the journaling here because I need to start a new one anyway, when I turn 40 since I can no longer post in the 30-39 section but maybe more than that because I feel I need to start fresh and perhaps help jumpstart my motivation.
As for starting, or continuing, rebooting here I will, at this moment have only one black and white rule: NO artificial stimulation (porn, sexting and so on). Because of my OCD tendensies I have, with experience, learned that all or nothing thinking when it comes to masturbating is destructive for my reboots. I have tried hard mode now for 3 years and now I want to take a different approach. This black or white thinking makes me relapse and fall HARD when I do relapse. That said, ofcourse I want to keep my MO sessions short and far in between. But as for counting days and resetting, it is the staying clean from porn and such stimulus I?will track.
I?m 39 years old but I only have about two months until I turn 40 so I figure it?s just as fine to start over here, right away, in the "40 and up" section.
I live in a small country in Europe and English is not my language so people reading this should be warned about grammatical and spelling errors
I also want to mention that I was over at YBR journaling since I was 36 under the namne "MarstonS". So yeah, that means I have been battling this PMO addiction for more then 3 years now. I have been addicted for longer than that ofcourse, probably since I got internet 2004, but only been avare of this whole PIED concept since late 2012.
My main issues right now, in life are:
Anxiety. (Panic attacks, in general but perhaps the biggest beeing social anxiety. Comes and goes in strenght)
Depression. (not to severe at times but it comes and goes)
OCD and ADD. (theese are not THAT big of an issue any more)
Low self esteam. (getting better as the years adds up and I work with my self)
Low libido. ( I do not suffer from ED anymore but my libido is not where I want it to be. Could, ofcourse be the issues above that drives it down)
I?m starting the journaling here because I need to start a new one anyway, when I turn 40 since I can no longer post in the 30-39 section but maybe more than that because I feel I need to start fresh and perhaps help jumpstart my motivation.
As for starting, or continuing, rebooting here I will, at this moment have only one black and white rule: NO artificial stimulation (porn, sexting and so on). Because of my OCD tendensies I have, with experience, learned that all or nothing thinking when it comes to masturbating is destructive for my reboots. I have tried hard mode now for 3 years and now I want to take a different approach. This black or white thinking makes me relapse and fall HARD when I do relapse. That said, ofcourse I want to keep my MO sessions short and far in between. But as for counting days and resetting, it is the staying clean from porn and such stimulus I?will track.