Hello guys am 19 year old.i started watching porn at the age of 13 by accident..I was going through my brother phone when I first saw porn, and instantly I became excited that every night I will wait for my brother to fall asleep so I can go back to my favorite porn and watch 30 min to 1 hr through that night..and this happened throughout, to early 17 that it became my daily routine. At age 17 I started using my personal phone and I became hooked and addicted to porn that I started watching 5 to 7 porn daily..and after some months masturbation came along...and this have really messed up my life...I came across Gabe deems video that was when I knew pmo was really a problem for me...I tried masturbating without porn even using fantasy but of no use..that was when I decided to start my nofab journey..my longest streak is 2 weeks and everytime I go back to my bad habit I really feel sad and wanting to end my life..and sometimes swear to GOD that I won't pmo again that if I did he should end my life, but still d urge increase everyday...I have lots of motivational video just to keep my mind straight, but after a week or two, I will fall back again...I feel ashamed that when I pmo I can't face my family it's as if am betraying them...and now age 19 still pmoing, I really need help guys, even after knowing how bad it is and how it has ruined lots of peoples life and relationship, I just can't bring myself to stop.
Yesterday I was really horny and it was as if the devil was beside me , pushing me to watch porn and I lost control of myself and relapse, I really feel useless and have no future..m starting another streak today, and I pray and hope today will be d last day..
Yesterday I was really horny and it was as if the devil was beside me , pushing me to watch porn and I lost control of myself and relapse, I really feel useless and have no future..m starting another streak today, and I pray and hope today will be d last day..