Hello, I am posting here as I dont know what to do anymore. I've tried pretty much everything and as the post suggest...I'm at the end....
I'm 30 years old, will be 31 later this year. I've Been struggling with porn addiction since I was about 23 but I didn't even realize I had an addiction until I was about 25/26. Since then, I've been on my own trying to fight it. And I've made great improvements in my life overall. I was originally 230 lbs and out of shape...dropped all the way down to 168 and got toned. Physically in better shape than when iw as in high school. I've (more or less) stopped looking at porn but I still tend to check out sluts on things like IG and FB. I actually deactivated my accounts recently and even my snapchat. I pretty much have isolated myself to better myself and I've been trying to for years now. But I cant take it anymore. I cant seem to stop masturbating. I can resist looking at chicks...but I end up looking at girls from either Tinder/Bumble and Idky I cant stop. Its as if the habit has been drilled into my brain. I'm trying to do the 90 day PMO challenge but fuck me....I cant make it longer than 2 weeks. I will never stop and will not give up on my recovery but I NEED to get rid of this ED problem.
I've tried....
meditation
yoga
distractions with video games
sports/Basketball mostly
working out
losing weight
DJing (career path)
Dancing(Career path)
Removing myself from group activities that I'm invited too
Quit drinking (Successfully)
quit smoking(Successfully)
LIKE WTF!? WHAT MORE DO I HAVE TO DO TO? I'm 2 steps away from cutting my hand off...
Please.....someone....I know I've written this post to seem a little funny or comical....But I'm honestly crying inside because I've spent most of my 20's ineffective,depressed, and limited. All I want...is my manhood back. I want my junk to operate at 100% efficiency again like when I was 18/19/20 and literally was able to bang my GF for 4 hours straight before. All I want is this last step back.
P.S....>Whats even worse...is that when I lost all my weight and got into shape...women started throwing themselves at me...and I denied them simply because I knew I couldn't satisfy them. Even had an opportunity for a 3some that I passed up on.
Please...anyone help.....Anything to help me last 3 months without PMO?
I'm 30 years old, will be 31 later this year. I've Been struggling with porn addiction since I was about 23 but I didn't even realize I had an addiction until I was about 25/26. Since then, I've been on my own trying to fight it. And I've made great improvements in my life overall. I was originally 230 lbs and out of shape...dropped all the way down to 168 and got toned. Physically in better shape than when iw as in high school. I've (more or less) stopped looking at porn but I still tend to check out sluts on things like IG and FB. I actually deactivated my accounts recently and even my snapchat. I pretty much have isolated myself to better myself and I've been trying to for years now. But I cant take it anymore. I cant seem to stop masturbating. I can resist looking at chicks...but I end up looking at girls from either Tinder/Bumble and Idky I cant stop. Its as if the habit has been drilled into my brain. I'm trying to do the 90 day PMO challenge but fuck me....I cant make it longer than 2 weeks. I will never stop and will not give up on my recovery but I NEED to get rid of this ED problem.
I've tried....
meditation
yoga
distractions with video games
sports/Basketball mostly
working out
losing weight
DJing (career path)
Dancing(Career path)
Removing myself from group activities that I'm invited too
Quit drinking (Successfully)
quit smoking(Successfully)
LIKE WTF!? WHAT MORE DO I HAVE TO DO TO? I'm 2 steps away from cutting my hand off...
Please.....someone....I know I've written this post to seem a little funny or comical....But I'm honestly crying inside because I've spent most of my 20's ineffective,depressed, and limited. All I want...is my manhood back. I want my junk to operate at 100% efficiency again like when I was 18/19/20 and literally was able to bang my GF for 4 hours straight before. All I want is this last step back.
P.S....>Whats even worse...is that when I lost all my weight and got into shape...women started throwing themselves at me...and I denied them simply because I knew I couldn't satisfy them. Even had an opportunity for a 3some that I passed up on.
Please...anyone help.....Anything to help me last 3 months without PMO?