Crystal123
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My boyfriend relapsed yesterday after currently being 2 months porn-free. Our sex life has never been better than this last month and I can feel the progress he's made from previous PIED. I came home from the grocery store wanting to get frisky but he was acting strange and I knew something was wrong.
I know relapse happens. I'm so grateful for the progress that he's made. Last night I even walked in as he was ripping out pages of hot girls in rock climbing magazines that seem to be triggers. My hold up is that even though i'm not taking this personally, in the sense that I'm physically comparing myself to porn stars, I do take this personally in that his porn use interferes with our ability to have sex together. We love each other so much and I can feel this deepening expression and connection, so when he relapses it feels like he's devaluing all of that.
I know relapse happens. I'm so grateful for the progress that he's made. Last night I even walked in as he was ripping out pages of hot girls in rock climbing magazines that seem to be triggers. My hold up is that even though i'm not taking this personally, in the sense that I'm physically comparing myself to porn stars, I do take this personally in that his porn use interferes with our ability to have sex together. We love each other so much and I can feel this deepening expression and connection, so when he relapses it feels like he's devaluing all of that.