alone

i try to reboot myself from last two months but when i alone and get trigger i tried porn blocker but it doesn't work on me i am a young guy feeling guiltily because of relapse .i am addicted from last 9 years of pmo and now at 18 sometimes go to depression.why i fail so i am asking what to do when you live alone ??and how to fight all this emotional swings now it seems that life has fuck me so stronger that i have looses my virginity without sex