How severe is my case? Healing time forecast?

akn

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Hi people,

I'm a 23 old male.
I'm on my 5th week of no P and no internet erotic stimuli, although I did MO 2 days ago, without P or fantasy. I start this thread mainly to get more motivation.

My case is a bit weird. To be honest, I discovered MO when 5 years old. Until 22 years, I only did it the prone position. When I was a kid, I did M just a few times. Without any imagination of course..

But when I reached adolescence, I started the "big deal" The large MO years started from 14 to 18 years old It was a time when I did have a computer with full speed internet and a room of my own. I did masturbate once or twice a day, sometimes not. I never went to hardcore porn though, I found it to be disgusting. I used only pictures and my imagination.

Then in the later adolescence years, I developed a sexual fantasy which I've never been confident to share to anyone and it's not "compatible" in the real world. So I've been MO to it, using pictures of women.
When I reached 18 years old, I found wesbites and forums with people that shared the same fantasy of mine and there I could find materials which would me arouse more and more. I was searching deeper and deeper and got addicted with more pics and texts.

I was still a virgin then. I had no problems with erections however. I remember when massaging various women at my age, I've always been getting it hard successfully... until 20 years old.

In fact, I am still half a virgin, because I've never been able to reach O when PIV. Because I've been ashamed afterwards, I've always did the oral thing to satisfy my partner. I always thought that lack of sleep was my problem, because I am a workaholic. At my first sexual encounter I remember, I had a 50% erection which didn't last long :D. Although in the morning, I was very energized. Kisses and holds didn't arouse me either.

I masturbated every time I was bored or felt tired. Sometimes I forced myself. I've always used imagination for it and always in the prone position. Until 22yo, I could MO using my hand but only when looking at something very arousal or haven't been doing it since days.

Then I realized that my sexual fantasy hurts my sexual life, real life partners seemed "strange" and "boring" to me. I had to stop this. I started looking only at natural material and I've been rewiring myself for one year. But still, I found out these pixelized women replace my real world partner. I said to myself - "this has to stop"

Later I found YBOP and understood my case. Here we are now -> 3 months of 100% no fantasy, 5 weeks without P and I am feeling better and better. I just wonder how severe is my case?

Overall:
1. I've been getting healthy erections untill 20 years old. I am 23 now.
2. I am getting it up now when my GF is close to me and I am touching her. But I don't feel cured yet.
3. I don't want to watch porn or think about fantasy anymore.
4. I feel much more energetic, self confident and concentrated
5. 99% of my (P)MOs in my life were done with imagination (brain) and not by directly viewing a PC screen or material

 
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