TODAY WAS WAS MY LAST STRAW! PIED and performance anxiety

Yesterday I couldn?t get it up. It was a combination of both performance anxiety and PIED. She and I felt bad and we haven?t spoken since. I screwed things up. I have tried NoFap in the past and failed. My best streak was 35days hard mode. Felt great then got bored and fell back to square 1. Prior to yesterday, I had stopped watching porn but still masturbated (Easy Mode). No looking back isn?t any different and less damaging as PMO. I no longer want to use any form of porn whether it?s hardcore or soft core and I never want to perform solo sex again. This is my last star and my last chance to fix it. I am crying. Please guys I need your support! I wish I never encountered porn or masturbation but I can?t change that. I can only quit and I need you guys support. If anyone is willing to mentor me , give some advice then I would be more than grateful. Thanks

Hey man, I think most of us have felt exactly how you?re feeling. In my case multiple times. I?m currently in my longest (by far) stretch since I started using porn. The biggest thing for me was keeping my eye on the prize, and reminding myself continuously that all the porn in the world wasn?t going to provide the satisfaction of a real life women, and porn was causing PIED that made that impossible. For the first two weeks I was listening to hours of people talking about the effect of porn and PIED recovery stories. Every time I felt an urge I would put that stuff on to remind myself of why I was changing. And I actually would think about the times PIED hit me with a real women every day, not to beat myself up, but to remind myself that this was a real problem, not something imaginary. As you get further from the event it?s easy to tell yourself it was just a fluke or something. But it wasn?t.

It took me about 40 days to start noticing any real improvement in erections but I?m seeing it come back now. I have a ways to go to where I would feel comfortable with a real woman again but it?s definitely coming back, which is proof that porn was the problem.

Shirt version, my advice is to keep reminding yourself in any way you can think of that you have to stop this to get a real woman.