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Freesoul

Member
Hello everyone,
I am almost a month in without porn. Unfortunately I have MOed 4 times in the month, two of which were in the same night. I need to find a way to avoid MO altogether for a little while to completely heal from my porn addiction. I have rarely had urges for porn, I have it engraved in my mind how much I hate it, but I just want to start this week off by avoiding MO and giving myself a longer time to heal and maybe give up M forever. I could use all the support I can get to support me for nofap.
 

Edit_undo

Active Member
Congratulations on one month porn free! Don?t get too hung up on MO. It?s probably best to avoid it (because for many people it is interconnected with porn thoughts or fantasy) but not as bad as a full blown relapse right?
Consider starting a journal to track progress and adding healthy habits (exercise, meditation etc) rather than focusing on avoiding. Also know your ?why? - why do you want to stop this, what?s your end goal.
Do some research - understand the brain science behind this. Check out the videos and articles on here, YourBrainOnPorn, and Noah Church.

There is good support here, we all want out of this mess.

Best regards,
 

Freesoul

Member
I am so happy!! I am 3 months porn free today and 17 days MO free!! It has been a roller coaster for sure. Lots of ups and downs and lots of urges to resist. I want to thank everyone in this community and everyone in the nofap community. I am proud of myself and I am growing stronger day by day. I want my sex life and intimacy with my next girlfriend and/or wife to be the most incredible experience a man can have. I hate porn, I hate it, I hate it. Thank you again guys for all the support. I will be continuing this journey with even more roads bumps and obstacles, but I will be taking everything day by day. A day without PMO is a good day.

On the note of PIED, I have noticed consistent morning wood, random erections, and when I did MO over the past 3 months (which was seldom) I had stronger erections. My libido levels are lowering, which makes sense due to the fact that my brain is not being subjected to artificial intimacy. I really don?t know if my PIED is cured. I don?t believe it was severe in the first case. I only experienced it once and I believe it was from alcohol, but I am not taking any chances. I am nervous to jump in a relationship, but if the opportunity presents itself with the right girl, it can?t hurt to try. I want to get through a 30 day reboot of MO first before I dive into anything though. If anyone has any advice, I am always all ears. Thanks again to everyone in this community for the support and stories.

In the next weeks I will be giving an updated story on everything I have gone through.
 

Freesoul

Member
This is a tough day. I had a full on relapse. I MOed but I pulled up pictures of naked women and watched a porn scene. I would say I am embarrassed, but I am more or less disappointed in myself. There is only one way to start from here. Recovery is not a short toad my friends. Time to reboot again.
 

lerxst

New Member
Hey freesoul, don't be hard on yourself. You went what, about 3.5 months? That's an awesome streak and you should be proud of that accomplishment! Don't look in the rearview mirror, it will only get you down. Focus on the next streak. Prayers brother.
 
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