Hi, Vega.
I second that porn-filters are a waste of time. But it's not for the same reason, that we can't be trusted. Porn-filters don't work because they take away power from yourself, and place it in some kind of software or built in blocking system. Porn-filters are another way of disempowering yourself, and trusting in an outside force or program to stop the addiction.
This is what the addiction already did to you, take away power from you. Recovery or freedom is all about taking back that power. While porn-filters may help temporarily, you'll find a way around them, because you've already told yourself that you can't be trusted, and that you are powerless against porn without filters. These are 12-Step approaches that keep you thinking like a helpless slave.
I know right now it feels like you need to lock yourself away, and throw away the key in order to stop yourself. But soon you will rediscover that you have the strength, you have the power to say, '
NO' to PMO.
Again, this addiction is not some disease leaving you powerless. While I don't deny that our past may have set us up for failure, what we created was actually a habit, a behavioral addiction, that can be resolved without first having to untangle all the psychological issues that may exist. It's simply a matter of habit change.
It won't be easy, but once you learn how to deal with urges to act out, once you learn how to recognize your cues, and ignore the urges, you'll soon relearn that you're the master of your own fate.
I'm no less worse than others here in terms of having had a behavioral addiction, but all of my streaks have all been without using porn-filters, without accountability partners, or even support groups- though I've tried all the above.
Come by
my journal if you wish to learn more.
Be well.