nostradamus30
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I'm at a point where I dont know anymore if my attraction to transexual women is due to the years of porn or if I actually like them. I have dated several transexual women in my life, and I loved having sex with them. I have paid for escorts and enjoyed that too (well, most of them). Now, I do love women, and I'm disgusted by men, just the idea of kissing a guy repulses me. Even though I love women, and I'm constantly checking them out on the street, I'm even more excited about transexuals. It gives me a crazy kind of electricity in my gut, sorta of a butterfly feeling. I have performed oral sex on them and I enjoyed that without any regrets. I have also been penetrated by them and was excited by that and reached orgasm within minutes. Even though I did all that with them I dont think I would been able to do that with a guy, I would be too repulsed by them to do so.
It feels to me that I am mostly masculine but I also have a certain degree of inner feminity that gets excited about the idea of a women with a dick. I'm turned on about the idea of receiving commands and being the one that is being lead in a relationship, whether it is with a women or a transexual women but not with a guy. I'm even considering going out with some of these dominant escorts to see if I get as excited as I do with transexuals. I do have ED, with women but also sometimes with transexuals as well (though, way more with women). I also feel that some of this inner feminity issue might be due a sensitivity to estrogen, if I eat soy, drink milk or have anything that contains phytoestrogens, my desire to be penetrated or to perform oral sex in a shemale will go through the roof. In fact, I feel that my sensitivity is so high that if I took enough soy, I would probably lose my disgust for men
I'm very confused as to where I am sexually, any advice?
TRIGGER WARNING! If you feel easily triggered by explicit descriptions, you might want to avoid this post.
I'm at a point where I dont know anymore if my attraction to transexual women is due to the years of porn or if I actually like them. I have dated several transexual women in my life, and I loved having sex with them. I have paid for escorts and enjoyed that too (well, most of them). Now, I do love women, and I'm disgusted by men, just the idea of kissing a guy repulses me. Even though I love women, and I'm constantly checking them out on the street, I'm even more excited about transexuals. It gives me a crazy kind of electricity in my gut, sorta of a butterfly feeling. I have performed oral sex on them and I enjoyed that without any regrets. I have also been penetrated by them and was excited by that and reached orgasm within minutes. Even though I did all that with them I dont think I would been able to do that with a guy, I would be too repulsed by them to do so.
It feels to me that I am mostly masculine but I also have a certain degree of inner feminity that gets excited about the idea of a women with a dick. I'm turned on about the idea of receiving commands and being the one that is being lead in a relationship, whether it is with a women or a transexual women but not with a guy. I'm even considering going out with some of these dominant escorts to see if I get as excited as I do with transexuals. I do have ED, with women but also sometimes with transexuals as well (though, way more with women). I also feel that some of this inner feminity issue might be due a sensitivity to estrogen, if I eat soy, drink milk or have anything that contains phytoestrogens, my desire to be penetrated or to perform oral sex in a shemale will go through the roof. In fact, I feel that my sensitivity is so high that if I took enough soy, I would probably lose my disgust for men
I'm very confused as to where I am sexually, any advice?