+1 for John Kabat-ZinnThe important thing to realise with the despair is that it's not really really. That is, the porn is amplifying it hugely in your mind. So you have a double-whammy. The problem and process of porn makes you despair more and feeling unable to cope drives you back to more porn. This is a vicious cycle.But once you can really see that, breaking it becomes easy. The porn is not your crutch or friend, it's actually hurting you and causing more of these problems or making existing life problems that everyone has much worse.It's not that you have weak resolve, it is that you actually are seeing it as something positive in your life because you get something out of it. But it isn't positive and you can get all those things in other ways without all the negative repercussions that come with porn.I think take the pressure off yourself a bit. Get good at making space and time for you. Figure out why and when you get sexual thoughts and what triggers them. Is it actually stress? Unhappiness with parts of your life? Whatever it is. Build long term plans and work at those things. But everyone has bad days sometimes. It sucks but is part of life. Porn totally erodes your ability to cope with frankly normal life experiences. That may sound scary but it is the truth. So you need to get better at coping. Good news - you can do anything except porn/sex to cope (or other self destructive behaviour). Anything at all - whatever works, you make the rules man. Write poetry, paint artwork, shoot guns at the range, motorcross, pottery, anything at all. No limits!!