DepressedAndOut
Active Member
Hello,
Even since my last PMO relapse in August 2017 after which, upon checking my erection the following day, I noticed that my penis had shrunk noticeably. (and also less blood flow)
This discovery SHOCKED me really bad - at that point my only thought process was that, as things stand right now, I may never get to have sex, ever. (Certainly not 'normal' sex) Again, this made me really panicy and my temptation to use Porn vanished once I discovered the effect of that relapse. (Yes, one relapse can make it worse).
At that point I was pretty much forced to use all of my mind's positive thinking and apply it during every moment possible - this is, of course a challenge, but with daily meditation, I think I'm doing okay.
However, as well as Porn, the discovery of my shrunk penis also put me off Sex! I have no idea why. But ever since that relapse, my positive feelings towards sex has turned into anxiety, turn-off and simply no positive biological feeling about it.
Why is that??? Can someone let me know if they have any idea...?
Thank you.
Even since my last PMO relapse in August 2017 after which, upon checking my erection the following day, I noticed that my penis had shrunk noticeably. (and also less blood flow)
This discovery SHOCKED me really bad - at that point my only thought process was that, as things stand right now, I may never get to have sex, ever. (Certainly not 'normal' sex) Again, this made me really panicy and my temptation to use Porn vanished once I discovered the effect of that relapse. (Yes, one relapse can make it worse).
At that point I was pretty much forced to use all of my mind's positive thinking and apply it during every moment possible - this is, of course a challenge, but with daily meditation, I think I'm doing okay.
However, as well as Porn, the discovery of my shrunk penis also put me off Sex! I have no idea why. But ever since that relapse, my positive feelings towards sex has turned into anxiety, turn-off and simply no positive biological feeling about it.
Why is that??? Can someone let me know if they have any idea...?
Thank you.