Hey, I made it a year clean. Not everything is fixed but I?m proud of where I am so far.
I?m a 32yr old guy from North America. Married, couple kids. Longtime pmo habit, longer mo habit. I started this journey last February after stumbling across this site and YBOP searching for answers about pied.
This is a brief summary of where I?m at. I have a journal in the 30-39 section that?s more in depth.
The first stretch was rough, brain was screaming for its daily fix. Exercise helped me to change my focus daily (get out of my head for a bit), get out of my house and be around people at the gym. If you?re shy like me, you don?t even have to talk much to others (it would really help), just don?t be alone for an hour of your day. Guided meditation helps me deal with stress and promote calmness. Do tell your significant other, unless it would break her severely. She deserves to know. I told her a bit later into this process and she is understanding and helpful. Journaling also helps me process what is going on.
The last month or two I had some new things, anxiety and trouble staying asleep. Both have mostly balanced back to normal (nil), I?d attribute it to this reboot. I think I?m in for a long healing process. There?s a lot to untangle in my head, but no guilt or shame from PMO any more.
So no, I?m not cured of PIED yet. I still have hope.
There?s still a pull toward sensual images and videos if they come up, but it?s tolerable and I avoid temptation whenever possible.
Before:
PIED, daily MO, frequent PMO, stressed, frequently sick, socially awkward/anxious and low self esteem/confidence, brain fog, fatigue
Now:
Still have PIED. Less awkward and stressed, more confident, porn- and MO free. No sickness or much shorter duration (knock on wood- miraculous with 2 school aged kids. They have not been so lucky with colds). Grateful for my marriage, family, and wife! Really in awe of her. Better communication with her. Improved mood, feeling of overall good health, better mental state, less fatigued even on short sleep. Life is good.
While I?m not 100% where I want to be, this year?s version of me is way better and I?m confident I can return to normal healthy function with the trajectory I?m on.
I?m a 32yr old guy from North America. Married, couple kids. Longtime pmo habit, longer mo habit. I started this journey last February after stumbling across this site and YBOP searching for answers about pied.
This is a brief summary of where I?m at. I have a journal in the 30-39 section that?s more in depth.
The first stretch was rough, brain was screaming for its daily fix. Exercise helped me to change my focus daily (get out of my head for a bit), get out of my house and be around people at the gym. If you?re shy like me, you don?t even have to talk much to others (it would really help), just don?t be alone for an hour of your day. Guided meditation helps me deal with stress and promote calmness. Do tell your significant other, unless it would break her severely. She deserves to know. I told her a bit later into this process and she is understanding and helpful. Journaling also helps me process what is going on.
The last month or two I had some new things, anxiety and trouble staying asleep. Both have mostly balanced back to normal (nil), I?d attribute it to this reboot. I think I?m in for a long healing process. There?s a lot to untangle in my head, but no guilt or shame from PMO any more.
So no, I?m not cured of PIED yet. I still have hope.
There?s still a pull toward sensual images and videos if they come up, but it?s tolerable and I avoid temptation whenever possible.
Before:
PIED, daily MO, frequent PMO, stressed, frequently sick, socially awkward/anxious and low self esteem/confidence, brain fog, fatigue
Now:
Still have PIED. Less awkward and stressed, more confident, porn- and MO free. No sickness or much shorter duration (knock on wood- miraculous with 2 school aged kids. They have not been so lucky with colds). Grateful for my marriage, family, and wife! Really in awe of her. Better communication with her. Improved mood, feeling of overall good health, better mental state, less fatigued even on short sleep. Life is good.
While I?m not 100% where I want to be, this year?s version of me is way better and I?m confident I can return to normal healthy function with the trajectory I?m on.