depressed. .confused

Today is day 51 of my reboot.

Some daya I feel depressed and thoughts that I wont revover, just like today.

Some days im positive.

I still have very less libido. A numbed brain. Just no response by seeing a girl.
Because in the last ten yeafs have glues myself to screen.

Really hope this process is reversable.

Ive been in stress that ive reduced weight and people have started noticing it.

I didnt have any mornin erections before my reboot.

In my reboot days..I am having them almost daily. But they are not hard. Somewhat weak.

Dont know if all this is reversable.

I dont feel like approaching a girl. There is this receptive feeling towards girls or sex.

I havent relapsed and will surely not relapse.

Hope things get better.

Things do get better.

You made a good progress.

I looked at it this way. It's better to feel like shit 3,4,5,12 months and than live the rest of my life like a boss.

Depression will go away. Positive and negative emotions come in waves.

Each time you get over negative emotions next time they come back they will last shorter and they will be weaker.

This will continue for some time until they disappear completely.

Everything is reversable.

Recovery is not linear. In other words, you may not have the same experience at day 60 as I will, or as several other people have or will. But I have come to believe that simply abstaining from porn is not enough. You have to train yourself to seek enjoyment from people. So go out and talk to people - girls and guys. Get used to feeling rewarded from human interaction. Then carry on until a girl comes by that catches your eye and go from there.

The most difficult part of this is that you're trying to change your habits, which is very similar to changing who you are as a person. That makes people put a lot of emphasis on seeing changes. People read a success story of someone having erections hard enough to hunt with after 60 days and freak out when they don't get that on day 60 or 90 or later. Don't do that. It's a nice pick me up to read some of those stories but look forward to the day you can feel that way instead of saying I can't wait till I get to day 60 so I can cut glass with my boner.

The only goal you should set for yourself is to remain porn free. I understand completely the desire for the physical changes to come about. After all, our dicks not working properly was what drove many if not all of us to find this answer. But if you stress the physical signs too much, you're inviting more stress than necessary into what is already a tough process.

It took my husband a year to fully recover.  It's a slow and long process BUT you will get there.  Trust in the process and put one foot in front of the other.  Soon you will turn around and see all the progress you have made, you will feel proud that you stuck to your goals and your life will be completely different.