So I'm going to give a brief idea of my situation and I'd like as many possible answers to give a jist of where I'm at....
Officially started having ED problems around 23/24 after me and (Who i thought would of been my wife lol) broke up and I went on "sexcapades". I developed ED problems because I wasn't having as much sex as before and it took about a year to a 1 1/2 to start showing itself but i didn't think much of it. Figured "every guy has mess ups. Just happens". They started getting to consistent and I noticed it was a big problem when a girl who I had wanted to be with, (Strong 9...could argue a 10) just straight up noticed me and went at me. Wanting me take her and I just couldn't do it. I learned at around 25/26 that I was a prime candidate/victim of porn addiction and i hadn't even realized it. I immidiately took efforts and i didn't realize how dififcult it was, or how difficult it was going to be. I'm still not recovered and I'm 30, going to be 31 in 2 weeks. However, during the passed few years, i've had to do it by myself. No rehabs or even these websites to talk about it. I've just been fighting it on my own just to dwindle my addiction down.
Fast forward to today, August 31st of this year, Idk what happened but I feel like I hit that "click' where i'm now on a roll. It was my last day and this is also the longest I've gone without looking at porn in all these years....almost 3 weeks. (Disappointing, i know but I'm pretty happy for myself right now) And right now, on day 19/20, I'm feeling pretty good about the fact I'm in the flatline now actually. I wanna make it passed the year and enter 2020 a new man.
My question is this though.......
How long...till you "KNOW" you're recovered? I dont even wanna test it, without me KNOWING for a FACT that I'm recovered? Is morning wood a "sure sign" that "I'm back" so to speak? Cause being honest, I haven't had a morning wood at all since I was about 21/22.
P.S. I know I was fucked up lol
Officially started having ED problems around 23/24 after me and (Who i thought would of been my wife lol) broke up and I went on "sexcapades". I developed ED problems because I wasn't having as much sex as before and it took about a year to a 1 1/2 to start showing itself but i didn't think much of it. Figured "every guy has mess ups. Just happens". They started getting to consistent and I noticed it was a big problem when a girl who I had wanted to be with, (Strong 9...could argue a 10) just straight up noticed me and went at me. Wanting me take her and I just couldn't do it. I learned at around 25/26 that I was a prime candidate/victim of porn addiction and i hadn't even realized it. I immidiately took efforts and i didn't realize how dififcult it was, or how difficult it was going to be. I'm still not recovered and I'm 30, going to be 31 in 2 weeks. However, during the passed few years, i've had to do it by myself. No rehabs or even these websites to talk about it. I've just been fighting it on my own just to dwindle my addiction down.
Fast forward to today, August 31st of this year, Idk what happened but I feel like I hit that "click' where i'm now on a roll. It was my last day and this is also the longest I've gone without looking at porn in all these years....almost 3 weeks. (Disappointing, i know but I'm pretty happy for myself right now) And right now, on day 19/20, I'm feeling pretty good about the fact I'm in the flatline now actually. I wanna make it passed the year and enter 2020 a new man.
My question is this though.......
How long...till you "KNOW" you're recovered? I dont even wanna test it, without me KNOWING for a FACT that I'm recovered? Is morning wood a "sure sign" that "I'm back" so to speak? Cause being honest, I haven't had a morning wood at all since I was about 21/22.
P.S. I know I was fucked up lol
