broccolini
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Hi all,
Early 30s man here. Been looking at P since I was about 12, when we first got dialup internet at home. Have gone through various reboots and made it to 60+ days a few times. Last year I almost made it to 90 with only one fall. But the overall trend has been that it has become harder and harder to go long stretches without falling. I've whitelisted the internet on all my devices yet somehow I still seem to find ways around it. In my most recent falls I've found myself looking at weird things that I never could have imagined enjoying - and even afterwards I wonder why on EARTH I wanted to look at that - so I made a decision to resume journaling and finally kick this habit for good. I've already wasted too much of my life, lost an engagement to the love of my life and failed to achieve any of the things I know I'm capable of. This has to end now.
It's a little more difficult for me because I have Asperger's and social phobia - neither of which were caused by P use - and I have really no friends or family to support me. It's very hard to give up your crutches when there's nothing healthy to take their place. But still I'm hopeful that this time I will find a way, somehow!
Early 30s man here. Been looking at P since I was about 12, when we first got dialup internet at home. Have gone through various reboots and made it to 60+ days a few times. Last year I almost made it to 90 with only one fall. But the overall trend has been that it has become harder and harder to go long stretches without falling. I've whitelisted the internet on all my devices yet somehow I still seem to find ways around it. In my most recent falls I've found myself looking at weird things that I never could have imagined enjoying - and even afterwards I wonder why on EARTH I wanted to look at that - so I made a decision to resume journaling and finally kick this habit for good. I've already wasted too much of my life, lost an engagement to the love of my life and failed to achieve any of the things I know I'm capable of. This has to end now.
It's a little more difficult for me because I have Asperger's and social phobia - neither of which were caused by P use - and I have really no friends or family to support me. It's very hard to give up your crutches when there's nothing healthy to take their place. But still I'm hopeful that this time I will find a way, somehow!