Johnny1234
Member
Though a long time P abuser and PIED sufferer, I only recently discovered this site and others dedicated to PIED. Not long ago, I fell hard for a girl and my ED was a major issue in our budding relationship. My desperate search for answers/solutions led me here. Thoroughly relieved to finally have answers to this problem that has plagued most of my adult life, I began my reboot immediately. We attempted to have sex one week into my reboot and after failing miserably to get hard (again), she finally unveiled just how frustrated she had become with my issue. I did not explain to her that it was PIED. Instead, I went with performance anxiety and self worth issues (which both are factors, but I knew that I wasn't 100% forthcoming with her). This is a long distance relationship, so I only get to see her on the weekends. The next time I saw her, I was then two weeks into my reboot and flatlining hard. I did not attempt to have sex with her - mostly out of fear of failure. I would not get another chance to prove myself as she ended the relationship yesterday.
I am crushed. She is adamant that my "issue" is not the reason, but I know that it is. The relationship deteriorated quickly once it became clear that I was just unable to perform.
I have not relapsed and have no intention of doing so, but my motivation is now greatly diminished. I'm not a very outgoing confident person, so the chance of having a shot at the real thing anytime soon seems slim.
The good news is that now nearly a full month in, I feel like my flatline is subsiding. My libido is slowly returning, but without a real girl to be with, I feel my urges for PMO getting stronger.
I am crushed. She is adamant that my "issue" is not the reason, but I know that it is. The relationship deteriorated quickly once it became clear that I was just unable to perform.
I have not relapsed and have no intention of doing so, but my motivation is now greatly diminished. I'm not a very outgoing confident person, so the chance of having a shot at the real thing anytime soon seems slim.
The good news is that now nearly a full month in, I feel like my flatline is subsiding. My libido is slowly returning, but without a real girl to be with, I feel my urges for PMO getting stronger.