The end of wasting my life

Yesterday I watched pornography. It is messing with my head today. That is now in the past and this is the end of wasting my life.

I have run the course of repeating the same old bad habits despite clear implications about my behaviour. It has ruined my life in so many ways, yet nobody knows. It is silent suffering which is hurting my health, relationships and career. Not to mention that I am supposedly trying for children with my wife. It is simply not fair (never mind dishonest) that I carry on watching pornography regardless. Not that I don?t care, but that I give in so easily to temptation, which I know is normally because I have a strange fear about experiencing my emotions. Fear being the operative word. I do not want to live my life in the shadow of fear anymore and choose to live my life directed by love, honesty and compassion.

I am a better person than the many times I give in to pornography. I am a powerful man with free choice, but still need to learn how to behave in a responsible way. Porn has stolen my time, energy, happiness and freedom and I am done with letting it carry on. From now on, I am going to be a man of commitment to being the best version of myself, a life without pornography and much great happiness, health, energy and vitality. A life of honesty, meaning and duty.

Please support me in my journey as I hope to do so for you.

Before anything. It ain't easy! But "getting tired of" it's the beginning, so whatever might happen, keep carrying on with the battle. Good luck!

Wish you lots of strength. I am in the exact same situation. Do anything productive to keep yourself from straying. Hehe I'm still figuring it out as well though.

Welcome to the start of the journey. May the result be amazing!

Why have you started another new journal? Are you still trying for a child with your wife?

I hope these rather direct questions don't sound rude - I'm just wondering why, really.